WTF!
HaHa let's bring livejournal back my nigs lol.
Hmmm...
Went on myspace today, tempted to write the ex yet again. I sat there with the message thing up thinkin of what to say. Kinda sad.. I wrote one word then backspaced, wrote another then backspaced again, then sighed and thought I was an idiot. I know damn well I couldn't call him or talk to him seriously in person. I'm such a pussy but if I feel something I want everyone to know about it. Maybe other people influence him so much that anything I say doesn't matter. I knew damn well if I said anything to that boy I would not get a respond back. That is how fuckin dumb i am. I was just gonna say "I love you" but that would be gayer than well... anything lol. I want something and I feel I have to act on it, even when everyone else says its better to leave him be. But I still feel the same about him, even months have passed and nothing has changed. I thought it would like it did with Danny, but it hasn't. All I ever wanna talk about is him. That's all I ever think about. God damn i thought it was gonna be so much god damn easier since we were only together for a few months but somehow its worse. Maybe because i don't know how he feels, no one does. I wish we could both stop acting like hard asses and tell each other whats up. See now I wanna go on myspace and think of what to write him, gay. Any advice? I'm sick of leaving him be. Live journal is always about asshole boys damn.
Hmmm...
Went on myspace today, tempted to write the ex yet again. I sat there with the message thing up thinkin of what to say. Kinda sad.. I wrote one word then backspaced, wrote another then backspaced again, then sighed and thought I was an idiot. I know damn well I couldn't call him or talk to him seriously in person. I'm such a pussy but if I feel something I want everyone to know about it. Maybe other people influence him so much that anything I say doesn't matter. I knew damn well if I said anything to that boy I would not get a respond back. That is how fuckin dumb i am. I was just gonna say "I love you" but that would be gayer than well... anything lol. I want something and I feel I have to act on it, even when everyone else says its better to leave him be. But I still feel the same about him, even months have passed and nothing has changed. I thought it would like it did with Danny, but it hasn't. All I ever wanna talk about is him. That's all I ever think about. God damn i thought it was gonna be so much god damn easier since we were only together for a few months but somehow its worse. Maybe because i don't know how he feels, no one does. I wish we could both stop acting like hard asses and tell each other whats up. See now I wanna go on myspace and think of what to write him, gay. Any advice? I'm sick of leaving him be. Live journal is always about asshole boys damn.