Dying slowly
I really can't get over it. I really can't. I am so empty. I am here and nice and I try not to do a thing wrong. And then this comes up. I get lied to so much about one thing. I don't wanna touch him or say anything in a nice tone. I can not believe this is happening. I feel like he fucked another girl. I mean what can be so important to phone up your ex, oh wait she didn't answer, let's call 4 more times, she has to answer some time. He called her more than he called me. Five minutes after he talked to her I called. I'm always the dumb one. He acts as if it is nothing. At first I was mad, now I am mad and confused and sad as hell. I would never hurt someone so bad as to make them cry every time they even think about me. I want to kill someone so I'm not the victim. I can't believe it. Why do people make my life suck so bad? There has to be a reason, there is a reason for everything.