It freaking hurts... So why can't I just rip it out?
I wish I could. I really freaking do. No matter how hard I try, I can't make my heart stop hurting. It's driving me insane. I just... I don't know what to do. It's been a month. A month. I... I don't know. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I get over him? I haven't even met him and here I am whining once again about it. What the hell is wrong with me? And why... Why hasn't he talked to me? *is depressed* And no, I don't know why I keep coming back to this. I don't know why I can't push myself to just forget him. I don't know why. I've pretty much forgotten about jeremy. That's fine with me. He wasn't all that good to me anyway. But mike was. I guess that's why I can't forget him. *punches wall* I really wish I could. It just hurts too much to sit alone at night, staring at the computer, hoping deep down inside that he'll show up online. It's not fair. *actually starts crying* I just don't want to deal with this stuff anymore. I want to find a nice guy here to date. But... That's hard. I dunno. I hope that this semester fixes everything.