My Life.
My life is pretty dull right now. It is filled with a repetitious and almost religious routine. My last 2 weeks have been out of whack and I just can't do the things I want to do because my dad and his family are staying in our house. As a result I have to live with like 4 other people I wouldnt have to normally. It makes me have to structure my day differently because I cant use the bathroom whenever, they make it messy anyway, and I need to do homework sometime. They are so noisy that I have to wait until they are asleep. So my days run longer than normal. And there are so many of them we have to let one of them sleep in our computer room, meaning I cant use the computer when they are sleeping or using the room for whatever reason. Conveniently our wireless internet router isnt working so I cant use my laptop in my room. Ironic. I can put up with family for about 2 days. Not 2 weeks. Lol. I cant wait for them to leave. Then I get to see them again in 2 weeks at our family reunion outside of St. Louis.
At University Development, I have made quite a few new friends. I have befriended the people who are considered the 'top' callers in the room. And I think that is why I do so well. I make myself compete with them and I also get pointers by listening to them. Although it seems that the people I have made friends with are older than me and are leaving either the end of this summer for jobs or in December. Like Carly, who actually just accepted a full-time position with the Michigan Health Council. That is pretty awesome! and Jesse, he is getting a job in the Detroit area. And several others, Matt is getting married. That's pretty awesome! There's gonna be no one left. Lol!
Although my life is dull and inconvenient at times, I feel happy with the prospect in the fall. This fall with be fun. I am living in Sigma Pi! YAY! I am a Junior in COLLEGE now. I just can't wait for whatever may lie ahead. So Im excited. Then there is Lauren, and the what if's, the why's, and the how's.
She calls me a lot telling me she misses me and loves me. Is this out of lonliness? I'm sure its true... is there anything that is going to come of this? I am really afraid to ask. I haven't said anything to her. I hope she finds what she wants, or more importantly what she needs. I think at this point I would be SOOO happy if we were together again, but ultimately I would be happy knowing that she is content. If she doesn't want to be with me, or be with me in the fall... I am prepared to just move on. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to move on, but that possibility is there. I just need to recognize that.
My goal is not to get worked up over her saying she is missing me, or that she loves me. I just want it to play out naturally and not get overly involved. If she really wants me and to be with me she will say it soon enough. I love her, and she knows that.
At University Development, I have made quite a few new friends. I have befriended the people who are considered the 'top' callers in the room. And I think that is why I do so well. I make myself compete with them and I also get pointers by listening to them. Although it seems that the people I have made friends with are older than me and are leaving either the end of this summer for jobs or in December. Like Carly, who actually just accepted a full-time position with the Michigan Health Council. That is pretty awesome! and Jesse, he is getting a job in the Detroit area. And several others, Matt is getting married. That's pretty awesome! There's gonna be no one left. Lol!
Although my life is dull and inconvenient at times, I feel happy with the prospect in the fall. This fall with be fun. I am living in Sigma Pi! YAY! I am a Junior in COLLEGE now. I just can't wait for whatever may lie ahead. So Im excited. Then there is Lauren, and the what if's, the why's, and the how's.
She calls me a lot telling me she misses me and loves me. Is this out of lonliness? I'm sure its true... is there anything that is going to come of this? I am really afraid to ask. I haven't said anything to her. I hope she finds what she wants, or more importantly what she needs. I think at this point I would be SOOO happy if we were together again, but ultimately I would be happy knowing that she is content. If she doesn't want to be with me, or be with me in the fall... I am prepared to just move on. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to move on, but that possibility is there. I just need to recognize that.
My goal is not to get worked up over her saying she is missing me, or that she loves me. I just want it to play out naturally and not get overly involved. If she really wants me and to be with me she will say it soon enough. I love her, and she knows that.