Meaning.

[peardog24]

I don't know that Lauren realizes how much she actually means to me. This is why I have stuck out this whole ordeal, if you will. Lately Lauren has been telling me she misses me, and will tell me she loves me. I miss hearing that. I really do. I pray every night that she just realizes I am who she needs to be with, and who she wants to be with. Not Eddie. I am making the effort to be with her. I have the same ambitions. Everything about me falls in line with who she is and what she wants, and wants to be. It is hard but sometimes whats in the past needs to stay there. Maybe I am just what she needs, and this whole situation with Eddie is perculating. I just find it hard to believe that he is going to make her happy for an extended period of time.

I just want this to work out for the best... for both of us. I love you.