event update.
recently, i've been so organized. its almost an out of body experience when i walk into my room or bathroom. its unfortunate that i had always thought i never had the audacity to keep myself in check long enough to be consistent. now, i'm afriad i'm becoming slightly o.c.d. but, not to the fullest extent (that being my mother who wipes down the front door on a daily basis)..... but... my room is clean, i can find all my clothes, and everything i need... as before, most of my life consistented of looking for things.....
i see this nature transfering over into other areas of my life as well.... whenever i had a dream, or goal before, i'd do what most of us do, wait to go to school it... and initially with this idea for organic fast food restaurant, i had the same instinct... but, steve snapped me right out of that... hes always telling me how "95% of people just talk, but, never really acomplish anything, so, speak with actions... don't wait to go to culinary school... experiement now.... whats stopping you?" so now, everyday i experiement with something new. and with each dish, i'm continually improving my skills ... working with different ingredients, documenting recipies, figuring out budgets.... its a relief to finally have something to work towards that i know could possibly make a radical difference in the way we eat. because honestly, there is nothing that we consume that is real... even unorganic vegetables are chocked full of pesticides, and when you eat them in comparison with organic, the taste difference is drastic.
my mom is baffeled by the drastic change..... she calls steve my angel. and, you know what i think it is....? he dosen't try and overcome it for me, he gives me such practical advice, and lets me do it on my own. like, when i leave a shirt on the floor, he just says something like "now... why are you leaving it there? you know, it would only be one more minute out of your schedule to just put it on a hanger, or throw it in the laundry basket... you need to just tell yourself to do it, and actually do it." once we overhauled my room... and organized everything, so, there was a system... its been alot eaiser for me to keep up with it i find. i've been doing it for two weeks now, and its still spotless. and if you know me at all, thats a miracle.
so..... those are the newest developments in my life.... i'm still trying to decipher this desire i've acknowledged that i have for women, and what it all really means. i thought once i experienced something with someone i did really care for, that a light would click, but, its only seemed to make it much more confusing for me. so, thats something thats on my plate. i'd also like to become closer to certian people, i'd really like to invest in the friendships i do have, and not just focus all my attention on one person.
and thats that.
i see this nature transfering over into other areas of my life as well.... whenever i had a dream, or goal before, i'd do what most of us do, wait to go to school it... and initially with this idea for organic fast food restaurant, i had the same instinct... but, steve snapped me right out of that... hes always telling me how "95% of people just talk, but, never really acomplish anything, so, speak with actions... don't wait to go to culinary school... experiement now.... whats stopping you?" so now, everyday i experiement with something new. and with each dish, i'm continually improving my skills ... working with different ingredients, documenting recipies, figuring out budgets.... its a relief to finally have something to work towards that i know could possibly make a radical difference in the way we eat. because honestly, there is nothing that we consume that is real... even unorganic vegetables are chocked full of pesticides, and when you eat them in comparison with organic, the taste difference is drastic.
my mom is baffeled by the drastic change..... she calls steve my angel. and, you know what i think it is....? he dosen't try and overcome it for me, he gives me such practical advice, and lets me do it on my own. like, when i leave a shirt on the floor, he just says something like "now... why are you leaving it there? you know, it would only be one more minute out of your schedule to just put it on a hanger, or throw it in the laundry basket... you need to just tell yourself to do it, and actually do it." once we overhauled my room... and organized everything, so, there was a system... its been alot eaiser for me to keep up with it i find. i've been doing it for two weeks now, and its still spotless. and if you know me at all, thats a miracle.
so..... those are the newest developments in my life.... i'm still trying to decipher this desire i've acknowledged that i have for women, and what it all really means. i thought once i experienced something with someone i did really care for, that a light would click, but, its only seemed to make it much more confusing for me. so, thats something thats on my plate. i'd also like to become closer to certian people, i'd really like to invest in the friendships i do have, and not just focus all my attention on one person.
and thats that.