Hmm.

[peanutbuttr]

I really can't imagine how life will feel once I have made it into financial security. It seems like I often get close to paying off my debts (which are really nothing relative to people with student and car loans!) and then something pops up that needs a couple hundred dollars. And that's all it takes to push me a little bit back the way I came. I really hope that promotion kicks in soon. I keep trying to imagine living as a nurse in a house that can afford myself and a new car that I also paid for just relaxing watching Scrubs on my day off. Maybe I'll go to the mall and buy something pretty to wear for Ben. Then maybe we can go to dinner and not worry about the bill. We'll take our little labrador puppy for a walk, maybe rollerblade. I'll fill up my tank at the gas station and not curse at the prices. I'll read all the fantasy books I want, and go out on Saturday nights and be able to pay for a taxi so that NO one has to be designated driver. ... (*sigh.)

Daydreams are bittersweet.

Btw, I got my nose pierced. 8'D