What Am I Going To Do? More Teen Angst and Crap!
*sighs* I'm so emotionally drained right now. Mike called and Shawn ended up intercepting the phone from him. He hid the other phone from Mike and talked to me. At first, he tried to pressure me into more sex but I quickly ended that. Then he was trying to get me tosay some crap so he could use it against me. For example, he promised he would get off the phone if I said that I loved Shawn. I didn't because I'm not stupid so he went for a different tactic. He pretty much told me everything about Mike's last girlfriend, Taylor. Turns out Mike had actually proposed to her and they were engaged before his mom broke them up when he moved up here. He also told me a bunch of other crap, thinking that I would hate Mike if he told me. It didn't work at all. But in between all of this, he told me that I was boring and that I wasn't right for Mike and that Mike should be with Taylor. In fact, Taylor had come up to visit, and Shawn was like "Oh, she's checking him out...Oooh...you jealous?" Which I wasn't but I was really upset. My parents came home so I had to hang up while Shawn was still on the phone. I was so afraid he would tell Mike that I hated him and I wanted to break up with him and crap like that. After I ate a little tiny bit, I quickly called back Mike a couple of times. All I got was the answering machine. I was so scared that he hated me, I ended up breaking down into sobs on my bed. Finally, I got through to Mike and it turns out Shawn didn't say anything at all. I was so grateful. I told him that if he wanted to break up with me to be with Taylor that I would understand. He said that he wouldn't and we left it at that. But Shawn is moving up to Maine and this won't be the last time I'll be hearing from him. *sighs* I don't know what to do at all!