May 07, 2005 13:09
so being a mom is not as easy as ppl let it on to be
your emotions run wild
you cry over things like a broken toe
or a bumble bee chasing you
ppl have got to think that i am crazy
and i don't care what anybody says
you need all the ppl you can get to help you through it
i thought that i could do this on my own but i was wrong
you need ppl for emotional support
and it doesn't help the situation that i can't really express my feelings or problems to adam
and i know that drives him crazy
i just have a really hard time talking to ppl that i don't really trust
but everything with the baby is going good
he is healthy and he is kicking the shit out of me right now
but i love it
no matter what anybody says you are gonna miss him kickling and movng around inside of you
the part that i am really worried about is giving birth to him
i mean nobody thinks about it when they are having sex but maybe they should just stop and think "do i really ant to push a 6-8lb kid out of my crotch"?
it's a scary thing to think about
and so much can go wrong
you can die giving birth at such a young age
and god forbid anything goes wrong but a lot can happen when you are giving birth to a child
but my best advise is:
stay strong even if you don't have the father around
don't listen to other ppl
sure i get dirty looks all the time because i am so young but all you have to do is think about the little person you have growing inside of you and i can honestly say it will make things 1000000000 times better
and DO NOT SMOKE!!!!!
i know most ppl think that "o my baby will come out just fine"
yea your baby might but there is a greater chance that you won't
ttfn