Hahaha Uggg Im A Turd.
In my mind im really cool. Very smooth, very confident and always in control. In real life, im a train wreck of insecurity, self doubt and the perpetual need to shit myself from being so nervous and anxious. Im a real catch. ::face palm::
Ive discovered the trick to the most awkward and shittastic hug in human history. It was as if i was trying to give a team mate a victory chesting and it just happened that my arms were attempting to wrap around them in celebration. If a moment where a first date ends can't and isn't any more horribly awkward, that goes down...i just smile and walk away quickly, stopping for a second to try and sputter the words " i'll call you soon " and instead all i get out is " I'll talk, yeah, soon you " and she laughs and says " Probably talk to ya online " and instead of being cool and saying something mellow and even keeled i just laugh nervously and walk back to my car. ::sigh and chuckle:: It was a wonderfully magoo way to end what was a very nice evening. ::sigh::
Apparently talking to girls is very easy, even natural for me. Getting them not to look at me as anything other than a sexless sack of bones, ive apparently got work to do. Not in anyway was i attempting or expecting anything sexual, but in the grand scheme of things, i doubt i did anything to illicit thoughts of alone time. ::shrug::
I had a wonderful grown up evening. Chatted it up, laughed and shared stories. I enjoyed the time i spent with Heidi and it seemed she enjoyed my company as well. But as the night wound down, i just got the feeling, i may be a very interesting guy and that's about it. ::deep sigh:: I did ask her if she'd like to see a movie this week...haven't heard back yet. ::chuckles:: Im having such an awkward day in general. I feel like my inner Clark Kent is just screaming to get out and im tripping over my own feet trying to fight the feeling. I watched the Separate Ways Mom and Aunt Dawn Birthday Video Intro...that didn't even get me out of feeling like a total chud. haha. i love that word.
Overal, i had a wonderful evening with a very pretty very funny and very engaging young lady. I guess i should look at it in the sense i had a date friday night instead of sitting at home alone...and i should let all my insecurities go.
Hhaha. Yeah right. :)
Ive discovered the trick to the most awkward and shittastic hug in human history. It was as if i was trying to give a team mate a victory chesting and it just happened that my arms were attempting to wrap around them in celebration. If a moment where a first date ends can't and isn't any more horribly awkward, that goes down...i just smile and walk away quickly, stopping for a second to try and sputter the words " i'll call you soon " and instead all i get out is " I'll talk, yeah, soon you " and she laughs and says " Probably talk to ya online " and instead of being cool and saying something mellow and even keeled i just laugh nervously and walk back to my car. ::sigh and chuckle:: It was a wonderfully magoo way to end what was a very nice evening. ::sigh::
Apparently talking to girls is very easy, even natural for me. Getting them not to look at me as anything other than a sexless sack of bones, ive apparently got work to do. Not in anyway was i attempting or expecting anything sexual, but in the grand scheme of things, i doubt i did anything to illicit thoughts of alone time. ::shrug::
I had a wonderful grown up evening. Chatted it up, laughed and shared stories. I enjoyed the time i spent with Heidi and it seemed she enjoyed my company as well. But as the night wound down, i just got the feeling, i may be a very interesting guy and that's about it. ::deep sigh:: I did ask her if she'd like to see a movie this week...haven't heard back yet. ::chuckles:: Im having such an awkward day in general. I feel like my inner Clark Kent is just screaming to get out and im tripping over my own feet trying to fight the feeling. I watched the Separate Ways Mom and Aunt Dawn Birthday Video Intro...that didn't even get me out of feeling like a total chud. haha. i love that word.
Overal, i had a wonderful evening with a very pretty very funny and very engaging young lady. I guess i should look at it in the sense i had a date friday night instead of sitting at home alone...and i should let all my insecurities go.
Hhaha. Yeah right. :)