filth of lust ; chapter 3
Title: Filth of Lust
Writer: akasora // peaceofcakez
Pairing: RyoDa,
Genre: Angst, Drama
Rating: T
Summary: Ueda vanished without a traced, only leaving a single voicemail. Heartbroken for five years, Ryo finally sees the man he thought he'd never see again.
[01] [02]
Chapter 3;
Feelings were slowly coming back as memories rushed back into his head.
Ryo wanted to scream at him for leaving him, cry that he left him shattered, and run away fear of falling in love with the same man who had left him shattered five years ago but his heart desired to see him, just this one rare chance.
The man was now standing over the table, looming over them as if he runs the place. “Hm.”
Ryo didn’t know what to do. He was stuck between a hard place and a rock, the hard place, being the man before him and the rock being the fat-ass Jin. Ryo wanted to say something cruel but his mind had shut down on him.
He looked across the table; Yamapi was looking away, avoiding his gaze. Did Yamapi know that he was here? Ryo glanced at Jin who was looking down. His eyes met his own and as if Jin was trying to tell something, it would’ve have been ‘I-told-you-so’.
Nakamaru however had a smile on his face. Ryo was bothered by that smile.
“Tatsuya, how nice to see you this evening, I thought you were coming back next week?” Nakamaru began saying, smiling wider than ever.
“Nah, I got bored easily. I finished the paperwork back in Taiwan early than I expected.” Ueda Tatsuya replied smoothly, as if he was ignoring the very presence of Nishikido Ryo.
“Oh. You must be so used to it now.”
“Four years worked me hard, Maru.”
The other man let out a laugh. “Of course.” Nakamaru scooted to have more space for Tatsuya to sit down. “Have a sit.” Tatsuya obliged to sit and of course, he was right across from Nishikido Ryo.
Now this was a chance to run away from this restaurant, from this hell hole but he couldn’t find himself to run away. Ryo’s feet were glued to the floor and his body wasn’t responding to him. It was as if his body told him to stay and see how this scene unfolds.
“Tat-chan~” Akanishi Jin whined. “I can’t believe you left me alone! I was so alone without you!” He sang out the last sentence.
Tatsuya couldn’t help but chuckled at his best friends whining. “It’s not my fault.”
“But still~” Jin grinned widely while drinking his champagne. “I was still lonely~!” He pouted and gave the puppy eye look.
“What happen to Kame?”
Jin half glared at his best friend. “He went to with you to Taiwan? You took him away from me!”
Ueda chuckled and kind of looked away. “Technically, it was his…” He trailed off. “Ah~ but don’t worry, he’ll be back tomorrow!” Once Jin heard that, he had that goofy grin plastered on his face.
Then Tatsuya shifts his attention to Yamashita Tomohisa.
“I thought you weren’t coming till next week Tat-chan~ what happen? Got tired of them?” Yamashita started with a smirk on his face.
Of course Ueda had forgotten that this person also knew what had happen five years ago. He did kind of force Yamashita to befriend Nishikido since Ueda was worried that he might still be lost without him or something. Apparently he was. “My, you sure love getting into my business huh?” He let out a chuckle. “Like I said earlier, paperwork was done early as I expected besides, they were busy. My parents took him away from me before I could even…”
“Whoa, wait! Already?! No way!” Yamapi laughed.
“Yes way, Yamapi.” He grabbed Jin’s champagne glass (since he didn’t have one of his own on the table) and drank it. “Don’t worry; he’ll be back in a few weeks. This means more freedom for me!” He cheered along with Jin who went ‘Yay!’
“That’s good, news.” Yamashita laughed. “We have a lot of catching up. Two years is a lot right?”
Ueda nodded and grinned. “Way too long…” Then he turns his attention to Nishikido Ryo.
“Hm... How rude of me. Pleased to meet you, I’m Ueda Tatsuya.” Ueda took out his hand, waiting to be shaking by Nishikido’s hand but it never came.
Ryo glared at the man across him. What game is he playing at? Ueda was still not bothered by the glare that was given by his ex-boyfriend.
“Who the hell do you think you are, re-introducing yourself to me when I already know you, you freaking asshole!” Ryo retorted angrily, slapping the Ueda’s hand away.
Ueda wasn’t surprised by this reaction instead he just had a sadistic grin on his face. Ryo noticed it and the table fell silent, whenever Ueda had that grin on, he always had a plan to do something terrible or something else.
Then Ryo felt something soft on his lips and his instincts told him to kiss back. These familiar lips… his eyes shot open and he pushed Ueda away from him. “Fuck you Ueda!” He wipes his lips and runs away.
Ueda noticed that Yamashita shot him a worried look. “Tatsuya…”
The other man sighed and shook his head. “Just go after him.”
Yamapi nodded. “I’ll see you guys later.” With that, he took off running after his friend.
He was worried. Yamapi knew Ryo was a… bipolar man, he could say that he was only bipolar when it involves Ueda. He remembered Ryo confessing about his old high school sweet heart that just simply left him with a freaking voicemail!
“What kind of person does that, ending a relationship through VOICEMAIL?” Ryo hiccupped, and ate more of his chocolate ice cream.
Yamashita could only watch his friend ramble on about this man named, ‘Ueda Tatsuya’ whom he knew very well in his childhood years. “Let it all out,” He smiled sadly while rubbing Ryo’s back. ‘If you only knew, Ryo… You’re not the only one suffering…’ He thought.
By the time he was outside, Yamapi couldn’t find his roommate anywhere. He knew that Ryo would not likely walk off to a random city that he knows nothing off. He went to the parking lot and found his roommate, leaning against the wall, his knees up to his face. Ryo looked like he was about to burst into tears.
Yamapi pitied him. Maybe the only reason they were friends now because he pitied him because Ueda told him to befriend him. He grabbed his roommate by the arm and dragged him to the passenger seat of his car. Yamapi then went to the driver’s seat and went off to go home.
The ride home was silent and awkward. Yamapi was glancing at Ryo while he drove, and he looked like he was about to break anytime soon.
As soon Yamapi parked the car, he sighed. “I’m sorry, Ryo…”
“How… do you know about him?” Ryo muttered, avoid saying Ueda Tatsuya as if it was taboo.
Yamapi looked at his roommate. “Child hood best friend.”
“Best friend? I thought that was the fat-ass Akanishi’s role.”
“Actually, it was more like, Me, Jin and Tatsuya back then in my child hood years. When… Jin and Tatsuya moved to Osaka, leaving me all alone in Tokyo… we still kept in touch.”
“Did… you know that he was going there?!” Ryo’s voice was rising up in anger. “What are you trying to do?! Torment me, Yamashita?!” He got out of the car, slammed the door and stalked up to the condo.
Yamashita chuckled and shook his head. He took out his cell phone and called a certain person.
“Hello?”
“Ueda, its Yamapi!”
“Oh hey, were you able to find him?”
“Yeah, he seemed pretty… tormented I guess.”
“Sorry about the little episode earlier. I couldn’t help it.”
Yamapi let out a chuckle. “Knowing you, you’d do it. It’s okay. I was hoping to catch up with you next week when you come back without Ryo’s consent.”
“I wonder if I’m bringing back old memories…”
“Tat-chan, whatever sick minded game you are playing, please leave me out of it!”
“Too late!” Ueda let out a sinister laugh. It made Yamapi shudder. “You were involved since I told you to befriend him and you knew that.”
“I know…”
“Anyways, let me make it up to you, about earlier. Tonight at my place around 9, like old times. Jin will be there!”
“Haha see you tonight, then. Later.” Yamapi closed his phone and shook his head. For now, he’ll be a bystander or a watcher to whatever Ueda is planning.
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Ueda moved to the other side of the table, so he could face both Jin and Maru. Jin, of course had a pout on his face. “No fair, Tat-chan! I thought I was your bitch, not him.” He said darkly at the last two words.
Tatsuya had to laugh when Jin said that. Jin has referring himself as “Ueda’s Bitch” for as long he can remember. He leaned against his arm and smiled to himself. Oh how long he had been yearning for those soft lips of his. Just little bit longer till he finally be able to let go…
Jin watched his friend intently, as Ueda closes his eyes. He had a satisfied smirk plastered on his face. Was he yearning for that from Nishikido for a long time?
“Jin… you understand right?” Ueda muttered the question. “Just let me have my fun, just this once. These few weeks will pass by and I’ll be gone, from this place forever…”
The world came crashing down before Jin’s eyes. He was afraid to even say, ‘Yes, go ahead, and have your fun Tatsuya.’ What if Ueda still like him? What if they ended up running away together or something? What if… ring. Ring.
Jin stopped thinking and looked at Ueda as he took out his phone. As soon Ueda was done he grinned. “Yamapi is coming to my place tonight at nine. You are going to be there, for old time sakes.” He said to Jin.
He nodded and he started thinking about his what if’s yet again. Jin wasn’t in love with Ueda. Sure, they had some kind of weird history before after Ueda broke up with Ryo through voicemail. He laughed. What kind of man breaks up with his boyfriend through voicemails? Anyways, it took forever for Ueda to let go Ryo or maybe he didn’t let go of him yet…
“Stop, thinking about your what if’s.” Ueda glared at Jin. “Like I told you, I don’t really love him anymore but I just want to see if he still likes me.”
“Tatsuya…” Nakamaru warned. He didn’t like how Ueda is going with this. Was he trying to make Ryo stir up some old memories then break him again? He knew Ueda was a sadistic man when it comes to the terms of love.
Tatsuya shook his head and sighed. “Don’t worry, Maru. I won’t do anything drastic or stupid or cross the line.” He held up his hand and pointed at his ring finger. “I’m married man.”
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8D um well, i have nothing to say XD
Preview:
Yamashita watched as Ryo threw pictures into the fireplace. Of course, for the moment, Yamashita didn’t know whose pictures those were until he sneaked behind Ryo and it was all pictures and letters and gifts from Ueda Tatsuya.
‘Aw, he’s going in denial,’ He thought.
He watched on, without Ryo’s consent of him being there, watching him as Ryo rips the pictures of Ueda Tatsuya and any form of letters and gifts.
“I hate you,” Ryo threw a ripped picture of Ueda into the fire. “And you, you, you, you, YOUUU!”
The other man chuckled. “I couldn’t help it. I felt bad and well, I don’t want him to get himself hurt or something.”
“Tatsuya, that’s load of bullshit.” Jin retorted, a grin on his face.
Yamapi chuckled. “It appears Jin doesn’t agree with that statement.”
“Oh shut up you two.” Tatsuya hissed. “Jin here is just jealous that I kiss Nishikido today at the restaurant.”
Writer: akasora // peaceofcakez
Pairing: RyoDa,
Genre: Angst, Drama
Rating: T
Summary: Ueda vanished without a traced, only leaving a single voicemail. Heartbroken for five years, Ryo finally sees the man he thought he'd never see again.
[01] [02]
Chapter 3;
Feelings were slowly coming back as memories rushed back into his head.
Ryo wanted to scream at him for leaving him, cry that he left him shattered, and run away fear of falling in love with the same man who had left him shattered five years ago but his heart desired to see him, just this one rare chance.
The man was now standing over the table, looming over them as if he runs the place. “Hm.”
Ryo didn’t know what to do. He was stuck between a hard place and a rock, the hard place, being the man before him and the rock being the fat-ass Jin. Ryo wanted to say something cruel but his mind had shut down on him.
He looked across the table; Yamapi was looking away, avoiding his gaze. Did Yamapi know that he was here? Ryo glanced at Jin who was looking down. His eyes met his own and as if Jin was trying to tell something, it would’ve have been ‘I-told-you-so’.
Nakamaru however had a smile on his face. Ryo was bothered by that smile.
“Tatsuya, how nice to see you this evening, I thought you were coming back next week?” Nakamaru began saying, smiling wider than ever.
“Nah, I got bored easily. I finished the paperwork back in Taiwan early than I expected.” Ueda Tatsuya replied smoothly, as if he was ignoring the very presence of Nishikido Ryo.
“Oh. You must be so used to it now.”
“Four years worked me hard, Maru.”
The other man let out a laugh. “Of course.” Nakamaru scooted to have more space for Tatsuya to sit down. “Have a sit.” Tatsuya obliged to sit and of course, he was right across from Nishikido Ryo.
Now this was a chance to run away from this restaurant, from this hell hole but he couldn’t find himself to run away. Ryo’s feet were glued to the floor and his body wasn’t responding to him. It was as if his body told him to stay and see how this scene unfolds.
“Tat-chan~” Akanishi Jin whined. “I can’t believe you left me alone! I was so alone without you!” He sang out the last sentence.
Tatsuya couldn’t help but chuckled at his best friends whining. “It’s not my fault.”
“But still~” Jin grinned widely while drinking his champagne. “I was still lonely~!” He pouted and gave the puppy eye look.
“What happen to Kame?”
Jin half glared at his best friend. “He went to with you to Taiwan? You took him away from me!”
Ueda chuckled and kind of looked away. “Technically, it was his…” He trailed off. “Ah~ but don’t worry, he’ll be back tomorrow!” Once Jin heard that, he had that goofy grin plastered on his face.
Then Tatsuya shifts his attention to Yamashita Tomohisa.
“I thought you weren’t coming till next week Tat-chan~ what happen? Got tired of them?” Yamashita started with a smirk on his face.
Of course Ueda had forgotten that this person also knew what had happen five years ago. He did kind of force Yamashita to befriend Nishikido since Ueda was worried that he might still be lost without him or something. Apparently he was. “My, you sure love getting into my business huh?” He let out a chuckle. “Like I said earlier, paperwork was done early as I expected besides, they were busy. My parents took him away from me before I could even…”
“Whoa, wait! Already?! No way!” Yamapi laughed.
“Yes way, Yamapi.” He grabbed Jin’s champagne glass (since he didn’t have one of his own on the table) and drank it. “Don’t worry; he’ll be back in a few weeks. This means more freedom for me!” He cheered along with Jin who went ‘Yay!’
“That’s good, news.” Yamashita laughed. “We have a lot of catching up. Two years is a lot right?”
Ueda nodded and grinned. “Way too long…” Then he turns his attention to Nishikido Ryo.
“Hm... How rude of me. Pleased to meet you, I’m Ueda Tatsuya.” Ueda took out his hand, waiting to be shaking by Nishikido’s hand but it never came.
Ryo glared at the man across him. What game is he playing at? Ueda was still not bothered by the glare that was given by his ex-boyfriend.
“Who the hell do you think you are, re-introducing yourself to me when I already know you, you freaking asshole!” Ryo retorted angrily, slapping the Ueda’s hand away.
Ueda wasn’t surprised by this reaction instead he just had a sadistic grin on his face. Ryo noticed it and the table fell silent, whenever Ueda had that grin on, he always had a plan to do something terrible or something else.
Then Ryo felt something soft on his lips and his instincts told him to kiss back. These familiar lips… his eyes shot open and he pushed Ueda away from him. “Fuck you Ueda!” He wipes his lips and runs away.
Ueda noticed that Yamashita shot him a worried look. “Tatsuya…”
The other man sighed and shook his head. “Just go after him.”
Yamapi nodded. “I’ll see you guys later.” With that, he took off running after his friend.
He was worried. Yamapi knew Ryo was a… bipolar man, he could say that he was only bipolar when it involves Ueda. He remembered Ryo confessing about his old high school sweet heart that just simply left him with a freaking voicemail!
“What kind of person does that, ending a relationship through VOICEMAIL?” Ryo hiccupped, and ate more of his chocolate ice cream.
Yamashita could only watch his friend ramble on about this man named, ‘Ueda Tatsuya’ whom he knew very well in his childhood years. “Let it all out,” He smiled sadly while rubbing Ryo’s back. ‘If you only knew, Ryo… You’re not the only one suffering…’ He thought.
By the time he was outside, Yamapi couldn’t find his roommate anywhere. He knew that Ryo would not likely walk off to a random city that he knows nothing off. He went to the parking lot and found his roommate, leaning against the wall, his knees up to his face. Ryo looked like he was about to burst into tears.
Yamapi pitied him. Maybe the only reason they were friends now because he pitied him because Ueda told him to befriend him. He grabbed his roommate by the arm and dragged him to the passenger seat of his car. Yamapi then went to the driver’s seat and went off to go home.
The ride home was silent and awkward. Yamapi was glancing at Ryo while he drove, and he looked like he was about to break anytime soon.
As soon Yamapi parked the car, he sighed. “I’m sorry, Ryo…”
“How… do you know about him?” Ryo muttered, avoid saying Ueda Tatsuya as if it was taboo.
Yamapi looked at his roommate. “Child hood best friend.”
“Best friend? I thought that was the fat-ass Akanishi’s role.”
“Actually, it was more like, Me, Jin and Tatsuya back then in my child hood years. When… Jin and Tatsuya moved to Osaka, leaving me all alone in Tokyo… we still kept in touch.”
“Did… you know that he was going there?!” Ryo’s voice was rising up in anger. “What are you trying to do?! Torment me, Yamashita?!” He got out of the car, slammed the door and stalked up to the condo.
Yamashita chuckled and shook his head. He took out his cell phone and called a certain person.
“Hello?”
“Ueda, its Yamapi!”
“Oh hey, were you able to find him?”
“Yeah, he seemed pretty… tormented I guess.”
“Sorry about the little episode earlier. I couldn’t help it.”
Yamapi let out a chuckle. “Knowing you, you’d do it. It’s okay. I was hoping to catch up with you next week when you come back without Ryo’s consent.”
“I wonder if I’m bringing back old memories…”
“Tat-chan, whatever sick minded game you are playing, please leave me out of it!”
“Too late!” Ueda let out a sinister laugh. It made Yamapi shudder. “You were involved since I told you to befriend him and you knew that.”
“I know…”
“Anyways, let me make it up to you, about earlier. Tonight at my place around 9, like old times. Jin will be there!”
“Haha see you tonight, then. Later.” Yamapi closed his phone and shook his head. For now, he’ll be a bystander or a watcher to whatever Ueda is planning.
Y--------------------------------Y
Ueda moved to the other side of the table, so he could face both Jin and Maru. Jin, of course had a pout on his face. “No fair, Tat-chan! I thought I was your bitch, not him.” He said darkly at the last two words.
Tatsuya had to laugh when Jin said that. Jin has referring himself as “Ueda’s Bitch” for as long he can remember. He leaned against his arm and smiled to himself. Oh how long he had been yearning for those soft lips of his. Just little bit longer till he finally be able to let go…
Jin watched his friend intently, as Ueda closes his eyes. He had a satisfied smirk plastered on his face. Was he yearning for that from Nishikido for a long time?
“Jin… you understand right?” Ueda muttered the question. “Just let me have my fun, just this once. These few weeks will pass by and I’ll be gone, from this place forever…”
The world came crashing down before Jin’s eyes. He was afraid to even say, ‘Yes, go ahead, and have your fun Tatsuya.’ What if Ueda still like him? What if they ended up running away together or something? What if… ring. Ring.
Jin stopped thinking and looked at Ueda as he took out his phone. As soon Ueda was done he grinned. “Yamapi is coming to my place tonight at nine. You are going to be there, for old time sakes.” He said to Jin.
He nodded and he started thinking about his what if’s yet again. Jin wasn’t in love with Ueda. Sure, they had some kind of weird history before after Ueda broke up with Ryo through voicemail. He laughed. What kind of man breaks up with his boyfriend through voicemails? Anyways, it took forever for Ueda to let go Ryo or maybe he didn’t let go of him yet…
“Stop, thinking about your what if’s.” Ueda glared at Jin. “Like I told you, I don’t really love him anymore but I just want to see if he still likes me.”
“Tatsuya…” Nakamaru warned. He didn’t like how Ueda is going with this. Was he trying to make Ryo stir up some old memories then break him again? He knew Ueda was a sadistic man when it comes to the terms of love.
Tatsuya shook his head and sighed. “Don’t worry, Maru. I won’t do anything drastic or stupid or cross the line.” He held up his hand and pointed at his ring finger. “I’m married man.”
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8D um well, i have nothing to say XD
Preview:
Yamashita watched as Ryo threw pictures into the fireplace. Of course, for the moment, Yamashita didn’t know whose pictures those were until he sneaked behind Ryo and it was all pictures and letters and gifts from Ueda Tatsuya.
‘Aw, he’s going in denial,’ He thought.
He watched on, without Ryo’s consent of him being there, watching him as Ryo rips the pictures of Ueda Tatsuya and any form of letters and gifts.
“I hate you,” Ryo threw a ripped picture of Ueda into the fire. “And you, you, you, you, YOUUU!”
The other man chuckled. “I couldn’t help it. I felt bad and well, I don’t want him to get himself hurt or something.”
“Tatsuya, that’s load of bullshit.” Jin retorted, a grin on his face.
Yamapi chuckled. “It appears Jin doesn’t agree with that statement.”
“Oh shut up you two.” Tatsuya hissed. “Jin here is just jealous that I kiss Nishikido today at the restaurant.”