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dammit. i was feeling good earlier this week. now it feels like things are falling apart again. my grandfather seems to be getting worse and now one of my friends--who just came out as trans--is feeling suicidal. and i feel helpless to do anything at all. i distract myself with the petty pieces of the world and don't get my homework done until the last minute. it's all very stupid. and meanwhile the rest of the world falls apart as the middle-east continues to be covered in blood and we destroy the earth with our pollution and doom not only ourselves but the rest of life on earth as well.
damn.
damn.