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i always think of interesting things to say when i am not in a situation to actually write it down. i'm pretty sure this is a common affliction. also, since almost no one reads this anymore i have been actually starting to write journal-y things for just myself once more. but i did think i would let whoever is out there know i am alive. i'll send a long e-mail to all those on my list, as soon as i get the energy. i dunno why this takes so much less energy. i guess it's 'cause i just do not care.
my life has been way too busy and having spring break does not seem to have given me the recovery time i needed. i just do not want to have to deal anymore with the large amount of class work and work-work i have. i am really over school. i made it through the toughest quarter for me ever and just have to keep going? this seems wrong and unfair. i just want to sleep and make good food and read a lot and play stupid computer games and watch stupid tv shows and movies and hang out with friends and exchange massages and otherwise NOT have lots of work all the damn time.
i realize i am spoiled as it is. my life is still a piece of cake compared to almost everybody's. but it doesn't mean i have to like it. and to those few out there who do have it easier, it really annoys me when you whine. "oh, my spring break was only two weeks long and i don't get to come back until may and i have a real job five hours a week and fourteen credit hours or poor me." fuck you. and yes, my neighbor did mention something along these lines to me. AFTER i mentioned having the hardest quarter ever and "only" a one week break. jesus, how is she going to survive in the real world? i hope she never has kids. that's my personal survival mechanism: as long as i only have to worry about me i may be able to get through the rest of life's stressers.
my life has been way too busy and having spring break does not seem to have given me the recovery time i needed. i just do not want to have to deal anymore with the large amount of class work and work-work i have. i am really over school. i made it through the toughest quarter for me ever and just have to keep going? this seems wrong and unfair. i just want to sleep and make good food and read a lot and play stupid computer games and watch stupid tv shows and movies and hang out with friends and exchange massages and otherwise NOT have lots of work all the damn time.
i realize i am spoiled as it is. my life is still a piece of cake compared to almost everybody's. but it doesn't mean i have to like it. and to those few out there who do have it easier, it really annoys me when you whine. "oh, my spring break was only two weeks long and i don't get to come back until may and i have a real job five hours a week and fourteen credit hours or poor me." fuck you. and yes, my neighbor did mention something along these lines to me. AFTER i mentioned having the hardest quarter ever and "only" a one week break. jesus, how is she going to survive in the real world? i hope she never has kids. that's my personal survival mechanism: as long as i only have to worry about me i may be able to get through the rest of life's stressers.