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i've been burning the candle at both ends for about a month now, and i think the wax is officially all used up and there's nothing left but a piece of charred wik. i've never really been a "work hard, play hard" kind of person, and right now all i want to do is nothing.
this is my ideal day: wake up at a leisurely hour and make a nice breakfast. enjoy the globe and mail over a cup of tea. go to the farmer's market with a few friends. paint away the afternoon in a sunlit studio with good company and stimulating conversation. go to a greek restaurant with my boyfriend for dinner. come home and cuddle in front of the fire together with some wine. later, read together in companionable silence before turning out tbe lights.
ok, well i guess it's not really nothing. but it certainly doesn't involve homework, books, heavy socializing, hard alcohol, or anything stressful. but i really wonder if i'm just an eternally unsatisfied person. when i am ultra-busy, like now, i long for simpler days. but after i get that, all i want to do is go out and do interesting things and meet new people. i seriously think i should become a buddhist and really, truly, fully gain the understanding that happiness resides solely in yourself, and not in the desire for other things.
this is my ideal day: wake up at a leisurely hour and make a nice breakfast. enjoy the globe and mail over a cup of tea. go to the farmer's market with a few friends. paint away the afternoon in a sunlit studio with good company and stimulating conversation. go to a greek restaurant with my boyfriend for dinner. come home and cuddle in front of the fire together with some wine. later, read together in companionable silence before turning out tbe lights.
ok, well i guess it's not really nothing. but it certainly doesn't involve homework, books, heavy socializing, hard alcohol, or anything stressful. but i really wonder if i'm just an eternally unsatisfied person. when i am ultra-busy, like now, i long for simpler days. but after i get that, all i want to do is go out and do interesting things and meet new people. i seriously think i should become a buddhist and really, truly, fully gain the understanding that happiness resides solely in yourself, and not in the desire for other things.