Blarg
i don't even really know where to begin with things...the past week has been amazing...there is a boy here, who is absolutly amazing...him and i have this crazy chemistry...we share tons in common, the things that you would want to share with someone, and we still have our differences....it's just amazing...he left for Abbotsford today where he will be for two weeks...which has made today a really rough day...i could barely do anything at work, and i just feel semi empty inside...i have only known him for 3 weeks, and i already feel so connected to him...it's amazing...i have also decided that i am moving here next summer...i can't take this having to leave any more...i know i have been talking about this the last how many summers...but it's time for me to move here...so i am going to try and get into UofC for my 4th year...and if i can't, well then i may take some courses at Mount Royal until i am able to finish my degree...either way i will be moving here...i can't take it any more...i mean it's going to be hard for me to leave work and hockey...but i can teach skating here, and play hockey here...it's about time i learn to let go of things, and grow up a bit...change is good..and it will be nice to be here and know that i won't be leaving everyone in a couple of months...plus it's not like i can never go back to toronto...i will go visit all the time, and if the going gets really tough here, i can always move back...no biggie...but it will be super good for me to move here, be on my own, and get to spend tons and tons of time with everyone...so i am very excited about that....
i am starting to feel a bit better...i still really miss the boy and hope to be able to go out tonight to help take my mind off him...i also hope camping on the weekend will help...i'm sure it will thou...so yeah...wow, i never thought that him being away would hit me so hard...it's going to be brutal when i have to go home...but as he says "we shall cross that bridge when we come to it"....
oh and i might suggest that everyone read Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, it's a fabulous book...or well i think so cuz it's very connected to sociology...but still a good read...where else can you get a very smart talking gorilla :)
anyway, i have babbled enough...i just really needed to talk about the boy, cuz it was just hurting being all bottled up...so now i shall go...hopefully i will be in the company of wonderful people tonight :) watch some movies, play some games...i hope it helps :)...hope all is going well with everyone else...big *hugs*
i am starting to feel a bit better...i still really miss the boy and hope to be able to go out tonight to help take my mind off him...i also hope camping on the weekend will help...i'm sure it will thou...so yeah...wow, i never thought that him being away would hit me so hard...it's going to be brutal when i have to go home...but as he says "we shall cross that bridge when we come to it"....
oh and i might suggest that everyone read Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, it's a fabulous book...or well i think so cuz it's very connected to sociology...but still a good read...where else can you get a very smart talking gorilla :)
anyway, i have babbled enough...i just really needed to talk about the boy, cuz it was just hurting being all bottled up...so now i shall go...hopefully i will be in the company of wonderful people tonight :) watch some movies, play some games...i hope it helps :)...hope all is going well with everyone else...big *hugs*