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Now I see why no one likes long distance relationships its obviously not ever the ideal situation but I really didn't realize hard hard it would be to pull it off. Granted we still aren't officially anything but i don't know everything is pretty much in the state it would be if it were all it is now is a difference in labeling, but with all the distance its driving us both crazy when you don't see eachother all the time there is that constant fear that they'll give up waiting and just find someone else. I really thought that if any one could pull it off it would be us we've been long distance since Junior yr in high school but once it goes anywhere beyond just being friends everything changes. At least I know that I'll be able to see him in September for a weekend which isn't enough but its something. We just talked about it today and everything is set I just need to pay for the hotel and stuff sometime this summer. I'm going to pay for both of us which makes it expensive but I'm not about to make him pay for anything since he already has to pay for the gas to get there and he's driving for at least 4 hours just to go to a wedding with me. I'm still hoping he'll get out here in August to but I'm not holding my breath on that one. Damn why did everything have to happen now and not closer to when I graduate and am not stuck here.