Paradise is so far away

[pbdstears]

Well hello hello to everyone who reads this and who even cares. I havent wrote in this latly but I have been busy job searching and what not, but yall understand.. Anyways, the job searching hasnt been going as good as I hoped it would but nothing ever does obviously! I have put in applications at the TDC (Tecumseh Dining Center), Rallys, Walgreens

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heres your truth!

[princess_kk]

other people aren't in our relationship and if you would have read what I wrote you would see that, seeing that I wrote that I doesn't matter what they think and they can't say anything cuz its our relationship!!! thats not what i ment by the being married for ever, what i ment was that when we get married that its going to be forever and theres not going to be any divorce or any of that, I don't like divorces or anything like that so I'm never going to go through that. I want to be married to you forever, I'm not scared of that. you don't get it, you turn everything I say in to me wanting some one else like theres a secret meaning in my thoughts, theres NOT! I DON'T want anyone but you!!!!!! I do trust you, I just want to know what your doing and I like hearing from you, kinda like you like talking to me and knowing what I'm doing. I have everything because I have you! I know you prolly think thats stupid but I really don't have it all, but it seems like it cuz I have you and you complete me. you don't get it and I don't think you ever will, I want you and only you, I don't want anyone else and I never will, you just like you want to only be with me. I've told you everything that happened while we were broken up. like I said last nite, you never believe a word out of my mouth, shit you don't believe me when I say I love you to you.

Heres the answers to you questions:
I never did anything with tate, and I told you EVERYTHING that happened that nite when you called, I don't like any one, and I mean I don't like anyone, the only person I want is you. I haven't done anything with anyone but you, and I'm keeping it that way. I didn't tell you everything at first cuz I knew how you would react and I hate having people mad at me( you should know this by now), I hate disappointing people, especially people that I care about. I know you prolly still wont believe me but theres the truth that you want!

Now answer my questions, what is going on between you and Jami? I know that she wants you, and you might not see it but I do. why don't you believe me? why do you doubt us? why do you push me away? why don't you want to marry me?