Feelings, lifes little trick!
Hello to everyone and hopefully you are having as great of a day as I am.. I have had the best 2 days of school ever. First of all me and my baby did fight over some old journal entries but we actually talked things out and we I hope figured it out. I got to hang out with my best friend James last night and actually not argue/worry bout anyone else. Today I wrote my baby a note and hopefully she will get it, im gonna try to be a different person for her. Yes I have said this before but her entries made me notice some stuff bout myself. I want to get to know her like everyone else has, I want to know her life, I want to know her interest, what she likes to do for fun, and what makes her happy. I hope that one day when can have a relationship like her and her friends, her and her brother, or her and anyone else. I want to be able to just be able to talk to her and make her happy, make her forget all her worries, just make her comfortable. I know I have said this before but if I dont worry about her then I cant get mad, I have tried and it failed as usual. But im gonna try harder. First thing im gonna let her have her life back, she can do whatever. I just hope and wish she tells me instead of doing without me knowing. I am not gonna get so bitchy when she isnt online or when she doesnt feel like talking to me. But I do ask, that while im up at Vinny that she atleast try to call me everynight so I can atleast hear her voice and get to talk to her, knows atleast some stuff she does. Last of all im gonna give her what she wants, if she wants time off then she can have it, if she wants to try new things she can, if she wants to leave me she can. I hope this will just make us stronger and not weaker. She says she is leaving for Chicago in one of her journals, well I want her to go and be a success in what she wants to do and experience life, not be held back for a guy that shes not sure she wants to be with. I want her to be sure of everything and not regret what she could have done, but I must go and work. Till next time everyone be safe and have fun and baby I love you no matter what you decide on, just be happy and enjoy life till the end. Ill be here waiting for you night and day and ill go to the stars and back for you, I love you bunches and bunches, buhbye.