result of boredom
what a shitty shitty week... broke up with anita... terry is leaving... working saturday morning... and now i cant even see tassj this weekend... FUCK!!! o well... she is going to her dads... i guess she does need him more then me so i understand *shrugs*... but still sad.
i just want to fucking explode out and say all this shit about people but i cant, because i just dont hate people. they say shit and then go and do the exact opposite, they lie, they cheat, they label everything. why cant people say something and then stick by it? why do i have to think twice or three times about everything anyone says before i cant judge whether its true or not? why do i feel alone and unloved even when my g/f is sitting right next to me? no, im not being depressed, just wondering what the fuck is going on with you, me, life... everything. nothing goes right, and nothing happens for a reason (sorry tassj, once again we are the opposite on something). if you want something to happen, do it your fucking self, because noone is going to come to you. 90% of this world is fucking disadvantaged. the other 10% get fucking everything, because hundreds of years ago some fuck in their family went and killed someone else and now theyre still rich as all hell, and get whatever they want. everyone is talking about 'everyone is equal'... BULLSHIT! noone is the same as someone else, noone. not even fucking... identical twins are the same as each other. its those stupid fucks that think they own the world and run everything, that are fucking it up for everyone else. i keep feeling like i want to start something... something that will change the way people think. me and terry had an idea started... but we dont know what to do with it, so we gave up.
i am going to go, because after writing that i have forgotten what i was talking about.
ps. i miss tassj
i just want to fucking explode out and say all this shit about people but i cant, because i just dont hate people. they say shit and then go and do the exact opposite, they lie, they cheat, they label everything. why cant people say something and then stick by it? why do i have to think twice or three times about everything anyone says before i cant judge whether its true or not? why do i feel alone and unloved even when my g/f is sitting right next to me? no, im not being depressed, just wondering what the fuck is going on with you, me, life... everything. nothing goes right, and nothing happens for a reason (sorry tassj, once again we are the opposite on something). if you want something to happen, do it your fucking self, because noone is going to come to you. 90% of this world is fucking disadvantaged. the other 10% get fucking everything, because hundreds of years ago some fuck in their family went and killed someone else and now theyre still rich as all hell, and get whatever they want. everyone is talking about 'everyone is equal'... BULLSHIT! noone is the same as someone else, noone. not even fucking... identical twins are the same as each other. its those stupid fucks that think they own the world and run everything, that are fucking it up for everyone else. i keep feeling like i want to start something... something that will change the way people think. me and terry had an idea started... but we dont know what to do with it, so we gave up.
i am going to go, because after writing that i have forgotten what i was talking about.
ps. i miss tassj