Weekend
It's Friday. Which is a good thing, but I'm instantly reminded that I have rehearsal all weekend. And John-Michael is leaving for the weekend, which I didn't realize until, let's see, about five minutes ago. It's fine though. The show is a lot of fun, and it's my last weekend anyway.
I am the least motivated honors kid I know, I think. I rarely do my reading, and we have an exam next week. Luckily it's take-home, so it should be fine. But I need to buckle down, and I am, in general, a slacker. I don't know what it is. Sometimes I wonder if this school was a mistake after all, because if I was really passionate and engaged, wouldn't I feel more ambitious and driven? Maybe when the major shift is done it will be better, or maybe the fact that I'm switching majors is putting me in the dumps. Maybe this honors thing just isn't for me. I don't even know.
Being on newspaper staff is good. I'm just getting my feet wet, but I think I like the people. I think getting involved there will help. And hopefully the fact that swimming starts next week will help me get out of bed. As of now, my ploy of getting a terrible job this summer so I'd be good at getting out of bed for class was a mistaken idea. Oh well.
In other news, there is a 10,000 Vs. System Tournament in Orlando the middle of next month. I should be able to go. Also, if this job doesn't call me back soon, it looks like I should be able to go home for when Kati's home, which will be good. That situation is much less painful, and I look forward to seeing her. The lack of a job is really bothering me, though.
That's all the self-doubt I can handle for right now. Have a good weekend, everyone. And go Bucs.
I am the least motivated honors kid I know, I think. I rarely do my reading, and we have an exam next week. Luckily it's take-home, so it should be fine. But I need to buckle down, and I am, in general, a slacker. I don't know what it is. Sometimes I wonder if this school was a mistake after all, because if I was really passionate and engaged, wouldn't I feel more ambitious and driven? Maybe when the major shift is done it will be better, or maybe the fact that I'm switching majors is putting me in the dumps. Maybe this honors thing just isn't for me. I don't even know.
Being on newspaper staff is good. I'm just getting my feet wet, but I think I like the people. I think getting involved there will help. And hopefully the fact that swimming starts next week will help me get out of bed. As of now, my ploy of getting a terrible job this summer so I'd be good at getting out of bed for class was a mistaken idea. Oh well.
In other news, there is a 10,000 Vs. System Tournament in Orlando the middle of next month. I should be able to go. Also, if this job doesn't call me back soon, it looks like I should be able to go home for when Kati's home, which will be good. That situation is much less painful, and I look forward to seeing her. The lack of a job is really bothering me, though.
That's all the self-doubt I can handle for right now. Have a good weekend, everyone. And go Bucs.