Nervous
Well, I have added some new friends, beautiful people I am looking forward to rich discourse with.
Lupa, I am so looking forward to this weekend, and as long as it dosen't rain, I think it's going to be fabulous.
T, you know I have to believe that 9L,MM charicter is Ed... Thank you for sharing that with me. Also, for the sumatra and rods. I am a slow but good learner, and you have piqued my interest...
DB, you made an awesome point in your letters to an ex friend of mine about people being comfortable with themselves not needing titles, except for one thing... MOST of the world and people out there judge people through that very thing.
Titles, certificates, credentials. Clergy certificates, Medical licences, Tteaching certificates, Driver's licences. We can't get away from it. And while I worked a lot harder than you might think for my clergy certificate (based on you and T's current opinion of Correllians) I have never claimed that having my clergy certificate made me a good witch, only the gods can proclaim me that, in my opinion. And in that aspect, I am smart enough to claim "I am but an egg...."
But my embrace of the one does not reflect (or it should not) on my sincerity for the other. If a witch is truly a walker between worlds, this is currently my balance. I hope you can respect me for that, at least for now. I honestly don't know where I intend to go. T has me convinced I am a Wren caught in a net, but rather than struggle, I will simply put my mind to work to the most effective use of my energy, the correct move to make (like chess) to move forward in the most productive path. And honestly, if that is to continue (for now) the path I am on, I hope you two can respect me if not for the choice, than for my loyalty and tenacity.
I am struggling recently to look at myself, but more than that, look at where I ahve put myself, and where I choose to continue to put myself. I like to believe I keep chooseing differently, and I can assure everyone I have never chosen to be where I am right now before. It is uncomfortable, but growth is. It's frightening, but growth is.
My question to myself is: Is this uncomforableness and fear growth, or rational thought? Should I be right to turn and run? Or is this the fear I need to face to achieve the next level of balance? How does one know the difference?
Like how many licks it takes to reach the center of a tootsie roll pop, I may never know (expecially at this rate.)
Lupa, I am so looking forward to this weekend, and as long as it dosen't rain, I think it's going to be fabulous.
T, you know I have to believe that 9L,MM charicter is Ed... Thank you for sharing that with me. Also, for the sumatra and rods. I am a slow but good learner, and you have piqued my interest...
DB, you made an awesome point in your letters to an ex friend of mine about people being comfortable with themselves not needing titles, except for one thing... MOST of the world and people out there judge people through that very thing.
Titles, certificates, credentials. Clergy certificates, Medical licences, Tteaching certificates, Driver's licences. We can't get away from it. And while I worked a lot harder than you might think for my clergy certificate (based on you and T's current opinion of Correllians) I have never claimed that having my clergy certificate made me a good witch, only the gods can proclaim me that, in my opinion. And in that aspect, I am smart enough to claim "I am but an egg...."
But my embrace of the one does not reflect (or it should not) on my sincerity for the other. If a witch is truly a walker between worlds, this is currently my balance. I hope you can respect me for that, at least for now. I honestly don't know where I intend to go. T has me convinced I am a Wren caught in a net, but rather than struggle, I will simply put my mind to work to the most effective use of my energy, the correct move to make (like chess) to move forward in the most productive path. And honestly, if that is to continue (for now) the path I am on, I hope you two can respect me if not for the choice, than for my loyalty and tenacity.
I am struggling recently to look at myself, but more than that, look at where I ahve put myself, and where I choose to continue to put myself. I like to believe I keep chooseing differently, and I can assure everyone I have never chosen to be where I am right now before. It is uncomfortable, but growth is. It's frightening, but growth is.
My question to myself is: Is this uncomforableness and fear growth, or rational thought? Should I be right to turn and run? Or is this the fear I need to face to achieve the next level of balance? How does one know the difference?
Like how many licks it takes to reach the center of a tootsie roll pop, I may never know (expecially at this rate.)