Cry
I write pretty often these days. Well, what to say: For all my pain, all I got are some lame excuses and lousy explications?
Well at least I guess it's one good thing done, he doesn't protest that we actually are growing apart. But he said I'd never see him again because it would be better for me that way and that hurt so much I almost .. cried out in pain.
But I didn't.
I didn't even cry once.
I'm still sitting in the library writing this, waiting until it is 2 to go do my german lab... What a boring life, and I already have a shitload of homework to do, and I HATE my Philosophy teacher, and and and..
Woah. There has been so much emotions going through me in the last few days/weeks that sometimes I'm taken aback by my own attitude. I know I have done some very unwise moves lately and.. Well sometimes I just wish it wasn't too late to come back. But it is, I fear.
Well at least I guess it's one good thing done, he doesn't protest that we actually are growing apart. But he said I'd never see him again because it would be better for me that way and that hurt so much I almost .. cried out in pain.
But I didn't.
I didn't even cry once.
I'm still sitting in the library writing this, waiting until it is 2 to go do my german lab... What a boring life, and I already have a shitload of homework to do, and I HATE my Philosophy teacher, and and and..
Woah. There has been so much emotions going through me in the last few days/weeks that sometimes I'm taken aback by my own attitude. I know I have done some very unwise moves lately and.. Well sometimes I just wish it wasn't too late to come back. But it is, I fear.