LJ what happened?
so I thought Id check LJ today coz no one has updated in a while (or they have but i cant see). glad to see two new entries.
I've been journalling on Friendster. I love it. I know a shitload of people read it but the commenting is kept to a minimum. its a strange feeling to expose myself to that kind of crowd, especially with my moody writing. but there's something I like about it. LJ feels like a small village...Friendster is Tokyo...not everyone really cares, which is good coz i dont really care.
had some weed and beers w/ valino, miller and avik 2 nights ago. the topic of conversation: how much of a pussy ive been with pulling the trigger with this girl Ive been seeing. she likes me. i like her. but for some reason I havent gotten the courage to just go for the kiss. to close the deal...or work towards something towards closing the deal. i appreciated avik's perspective: ive known her for 3 weeks, so if the friendship gets ruined, who cares? its three weeks. but when 3 weeks feels much longer the stakes are raised just a little bit. miller offered gentler fare. he said that above anything else, i need to make my intentions known, otherwise i fall into the "friendship" zone. and that zone sucks balls. so, I applied the comedic cardinal rule: know your audience. then, with avik's "you're being a total pussy" and miller's "just let your intentions be known" theories combined with the cardinal rule...i did it. the very next night.
so i was with brandon, bob and john lacsina about to burn a joint right before i was supposed to meet up with her. i get a call...she wants me to meet her parents. fuck balls. i guess im not smoking that joint afterall. balls.
so i meet her moms...very casual...just at the door.
we go for a drive and find a nice place to park (which is hard to find in markham). i made my intentions known. her response: "what the hell took you so long? if you hadn't said anything, I would have." whoah. i still turned wuss and the evening turned out to be one full of sweet revelations.
i dropped her off...and i felt like a king.
we'll see where this thing actually goes. but for the record, this is looking like a marathon rather than a sprint. im a sprinter and I like to start fast and furious and passionate and firey (fiery)...but this one has a different feel...like its a part of the reason i came back home...its a part of re-establishing myself back in toronto.
i've been meeting quite a few beans as of late and it seems that the more "taken" I am...the more they become interested. thats the way its always been. but im lovin the new adventure...im going to my first real salsa lesson this thursday with one of them. we'll see how that goes. i guess being past your mid-twenties, unemployed and living at home is in style this summer...lucky for me.
on another note, ive started being addicted to cigarettes again. but im re-quitting next week with lady.
oh wait, no...i got a job. its fundraising for non-charitable organizations...its bullshit work, but its SOMETHING. I also got offered a sales position for a securities company and a sales position for an insurance brokerage firm....fuck sales. the only kind of sales Im mildly interested in is CAR sales. I think im made for that job. have you seen the show "King of Cars"? fuckin inspirational...thats SO me.
thats it for now.
easy.
peace.
I've been journalling on Friendster. I love it. I know a shitload of people read it but the commenting is kept to a minimum. its a strange feeling to expose myself to that kind of crowd, especially with my moody writing. but there's something I like about it. LJ feels like a small village...Friendster is Tokyo...not everyone really cares, which is good coz i dont really care.
had some weed and beers w/ valino, miller and avik 2 nights ago. the topic of conversation: how much of a pussy ive been with pulling the trigger with this girl Ive been seeing. she likes me. i like her. but for some reason I havent gotten the courage to just go for the kiss. to close the deal...or work towards something towards closing the deal. i appreciated avik's perspective: ive known her for 3 weeks, so if the friendship gets ruined, who cares? its three weeks. but when 3 weeks feels much longer the stakes are raised just a little bit. miller offered gentler fare. he said that above anything else, i need to make my intentions known, otherwise i fall into the "friendship" zone. and that zone sucks balls. so, I applied the comedic cardinal rule: know your audience. then, with avik's "you're being a total pussy" and miller's "just let your intentions be known" theories combined with the cardinal rule...i did it. the very next night.
so i was with brandon, bob and john lacsina about to burn a joint right before i was supposed to meet up with her. i get a call...she wants me to meet her parents. fuck balls. i guess im not smoking that joint afterall. balls.
so i meet her moms...very casual...just at the door.
we go for a drive and find a nice place to park (which is hard to find in markham). i made my intentions known. her response: "what the hell took you so long? if you hadn't said anything, I would have." whoah. i still turned wuss and the evening turned out to be one full of sweet revelations.
i dropped her off...and i felt like a king.
we'll see where this thing actually goes. but for the record, this is looking like a marathon rather than a sprint. im a sprinter and I like to start fast and furious and passionate and firey (fiery)...but this one has a different feel...like its a part of the reason i came back home...its a part of re-establishing myself back in toronto.
i've been meeting quite a few beans as of late and it seems that the more "taken" I am...the more they become interested. thats the way its always been. but im lovin the new adventure...im going to my first real salsa lesson this thursday with one of them. we'll see how that goes. i guess being past your mid-twenties, unemployed and living at home is in style this summer...lucky for me.
on another note, ive started being addicted to cigarettes again. but im re-quitting next week with lady.
oh wait, no...i got a job. its fundraising for non-charitable organizations...its bullshit work, but its SOMETHING. I also got offered a sales position for a securities company and a sales position for an insurance brokerage firm....fuck sales. the only kind of sales Im mildly interested in is CAR sales. I think im made for that job. have you seen the show "King of Cars"? fuckin inspirational...thats SO me.
thats it for now.
easy.
peace.