oh my god
oh my god
i have had a week from hell...all choir related...well more or less. i think i'm getting some resolution on it. gillian , last sunday, told me in so many words that she wanted to take over the choir. i serioulsy don't want her to...not because i don't want to be led by her, but because it would mean i wouldn't be doing it anymore, sob sob. i just couldn't stop crying. on tuesday i rang rev nigel to talk to him. technically he shouldn't have offered gillian the post without checking with me that that was ok. yes he's charge and he can appoint who wants but generally you wait for one person to leave first!!! Anyway, i also asked about money...and suggested expenses should be paid rather than a salary. the church treasurer even said to me on wed night that he would give me any expenses...but nigel is still saying no. i feel really let down by nigel because he hasn't respected me but checking with me first or giving me money. with this all in my mind, and knowing that i will have to stand down anyway.. i just want to go, leave the church...even for a time period. i'm not well this week, so gillian took the choir today. she does not want me to go...we've become really good friends..
i was at church tonight...just to listen, not to sing. i was sitting in the congregation and another member started talking to me and slagging off nigel. at this stage i wasn't sure if i'd be back again the following week. started to talk about the fact that nigel wouldn't pay me and that i should be. i couldn't cope with more negatives about him and the situation and walked away in tears. i decided to sit with gillian at the organ for the service.
after the service nigel wanted to speak to me (to tell me that gillain wanted to take over and that he still wasn't going to pay me). i asked gillian to wait for me, so she did in the car, but she left the car park so nigel wouldn't know. when i drove out i went to her house, but there was a car flashing their lights behind me. she'd been hiding across the road in her car so nigel wouldn't know!!! she makes me laugh so much!! anyway, we had a good chat and she said sh'e try and think about a way to keep both of us happy, which is cool. just need nigel to give me money. he said he would still think about it. i'm trying really hard.
i have had a week from hell...all choir related...well more or less. i think i'm getting some resolution on it. gillian , last sunday, told me in so many words that she wanted to take over the choir. i serioulsy don't want her to...not because i don't want to be led by her, but because it would mean i wouldn't be doing it anymore, sob sob. i just couldn't stop crying. on tuesday i rang rev nigel to talk to him. technically he shouldn't have offered gillian the post without checking with me that that was ok. yes he's charge and he can appoint who wants but generally you wait for one person to leave first!!! Anyway, i also asked about money...and suggested expenses should be paid rather than a salary. the church treasurer even said to me on wed night that he would give me any expenses...but nigel is still saying no. i feel really let down by nigel because he hasn't respected me but checking with me first or giving me money. with this all in my mind, and knowing that i will have to stand down anyway.. i just want to go, leave the church...even for a time period. i'm not well this week, so gillian took the choir today. she does not want me to go...we've become really good friends..
i was at church tonight...just to listen, not to sing. i was sitting in the congregation and another member started talking to me and slagging off nigel. at this stage i wasn't sure if i'd be back again the following week. started to talk about the fact that nigel wouldn't pay me and that i should be. i couldn't cope with more negatives about him and the situation and walked away in tears. i decided to sit with gillian at the organ for the service.
after the service nigel wanted to speak to me (to tell me that gillain wanted to take over and that he still wasn't going to pay me). i asked gillian to wait for me, so she did in the car, but she left the car park so nigel wouldn't know. when i drove out i went to her house, but there was a car flashing their lights behind me. she'd been hiding across the road in her car so nigel wouldn't know!!! she makes me laugh so much!! anyway, we had a good chat and she said sh'e try and think about a way to keep both of us happy, which is cool. just need nigel to give me money. he said he would still think about it. i'm trying really hard.