watch it burn, watch it fly....
quite obviously you dont understand me; or addicts enough to realize that we always miss and want to get fucked up again. it doesnt mean im going to go out and get royally fucked or get back on drugs.. idk what the fuck your issue is but i dont need another person looking through my comments and shit to see what im talking about...if we such good friends you shouldnt have to go through my conversations and shit just to find out whats going on...and its fine if you have a problem with something someone says, but you dont need to live with that at night..i do. its not that you need to keep quiet. you just need to not be so protective...i know your doing it caring about me...but its not fair for me or you. we both have our issues to deal with, you dont need to help me make up my mind or persuade me to do otherwise...because when it all comes down to it, i make my mistakes, and i make my life the way it is.
and i think its pretty lame that you deleted my comment obviously after you read otherwise it still would've been on there...i could care less why you did that...but thats dumb.
and what has pissed me off alot lately is that ill say something and you dont even realize that i said something..you never used to be like that..you treated everything i had to say as something important..no matter how dumb, non-intellectual, or morbid it was. you are my best friend...now its just different. i realize that many changes have occured but i dont know whats happened to us. your my gitsie...and now there hasnt been much there...its all started to fray. i dont understand, and i hate myself for it...i feel its my fault..and whatever it probablly is ... but i fucken know that i have a lot to offer in words, actions, and everythng else. so it doesnt feel fair to me.
you and steve are great together and i fucking love and adore you both, but i feel more and more out of place.
so take things how you want; and be stubborn or whatever, you just take somethings to literally and serious. yes being sober is a very very serious. its a very important piece of my life, and ive been sober and am not going to give that up because a friend or past wants to make me feel the lame-ass artificial "happy".
and i dont know what you want...
but im not apologizing or anything...
i dont fucken care. i didnt do anything wrong.
im doing fine, just dandy. maybe not happy but i live with it.
so whatever if your going to let something this dumb turn into a fight.
if you are, i dont want a part of it. we both know what a smart, delightful jellybean you are.
so you got this piece of knowlege from my half, when i was going to let it go
after i commented you, but you didnt.
sweet it made going to a Narcotic's Anonymous meeting tonight work until i read
your entry.
and i think its pretty lame that you deleted my comment obviously after you read otherwise it still would've been on there...i could care less why you did that...but thats dumb.
and what has pissed me off alot lately is that ill say something and you dont even realize that i said something..you never used to be like that..you treated everything i had to say as something important..no matter how dumb, non-intellectual, or morbid it was. you are my best friend...now its just different. i realize that many changes have occured but i dont know whats happened to us. your my gitsie...and now there hasnt been much there...its all started to fray. i dont understand, and i hate myself for it...i feel its my fault..and whatever it probablly is ... but i fucken know that i have a lot to offer in words, actions, and everythng else. so it doesnt feel fair to me.
you and steve are great together and i fucking love and adore you both, but i feel more and more out of place.
so take things how you want; and be stubborn or whatever, you just take somethings to literally and serious. yes being sober is a very very serious. its a very important piece of my life, and ive been sober and am not going to give that up because a friend or past wants to make me feel the lame-ass artificial "happy".
and i dont know what you want...
but im not apologizing or anything...
i dont fucken care. i didnt do anything wrong.
im doing fine, just dandy. maybe not happy but i live with it.
so whatever if your going to let something this dumb turn into a fight.
if you are, i dont want a part of it. we both know what a smart, delightful jellybean you are.
so you got this piece of knowlege from my half, when i was going to let it go
after i commented you, but you didnt.
sweet it made going to a Narcotic's Anonymous meeting tonight work until i read
your entry.