tranny clammy
i've been really bored this past week. i'm pretty sure it had a lot to do with the fact that i had to pay rent and that sucked out all of my money which means that it sucked out all of my fun time. i could have spent the day at the beach or taken that trip to santa barbara or the zoo or the museum or wherever else. speaking of museums, i feel a lot lazier about going to see cool art and whatnot here than i did back home. even though taking a train to nyc and then having to walk a million blocks takes a long time, it just seemed a lot more fun being in the city. in L.A., i have to drive and then i have been too lazy to try and learn the bus lines and then i have to find parking and then i have to deal with all of the people who can't drive and then they have to deal with me when i don't pay attention, run red lights and cut people off at the last second in turn making it seem as if i can't drive either. i think i'll try to learn the bus systems and more of the L.A. area during the fall when it's not as hot and there aren't as many tourists. although i'm practically a tourist still. haha i still haven't gone to Malibu or Catalina Island and a bunch of other places. booo wish i had more monies. ah well. i have the rest of the year for all of that. including going to san fran.
work has been ok. i always have a crapload of work to do. it's only annoying when pablo starts talking to me before i even punch in and is like " you can't do any HR today!" and im like.. wtf i need to do HR everyday. it's my job. he did that shit this morning and then he said " i know , i know everyday is a great day to do HR for you" and said "yeah of course!" i don't care though i usually find a way to slip in some stuff. i mean they usually give me time sometime throughout the day but i would always rather get my shit done and then deal with the rest. but after i get everything HR related back on track i get to go back to doing sidecaps and endcaps and the racetrack. making the most important parts of the store look pretty. i didn't want to sound like a conceited asshole to my bosses but i think those areas of the store have not looked as nice since i stopped doing it. i just feel a lot of the endcaps could have looked A LOT better and they could have merchandised the product in more eye pleasing ways. i just know i'm good at it and that is why they gave me the job and sometimes i feel like they didn't push the other dept sups to the same standards. OR maybe they just realize that everyone has their strengths in something so it's not as important as long as it gets done. and i really don't like any of the endcaps john has ever done. they never are full enough so it's a lot of wasted space. this is probably a lot of shit people don't really notice but since I have to do it all of the time i am always comparing other stores merchandising. whatever, we live in a world made of things to grab our attention and buy their crap.
hmm people at work are still annoying. i tried to coach angelina today and she practically jumped down my throat and ripped it out. she got SO defensive. i kind of wanted to smack her. haha i thought about it as she was blabbing on and then apologizing if she wasn't understanding me correctly and maybe it was the way that i said it and that is why she got all defensive. idk. i just feel that if my boss told me that he didn't want me to sell something the way i was doing it and to try it a different way to get better results then i would be like "ok, cool!"and just fucking do it. people there are always ready to be dramatic and use every excuse in the book. i thought really hard about putting more serious effort into making friends with people at work but all of the people i want to really hang with are on my boss' shit list. so i find it really awkward bc i don't think i can be their friend, be their HR and then try to be on their side but also have to counsel them bc they suck too. whatever
so i convinced my mom that it would be a reallly good idea if the both of us went to Barbados next year so she can show me all of my heritage and where she grew up and everything. plus we can spend every day on the beach sipping on pina coladas. who doesn't want to do that? i just have to keep reminding her what a bad idea it will be to stay with family. hahah what a disaster. i know there will be an argument and on vaca, i run far, far away from any family conflict bc how can you enjoy yourself with all of that drama? we are thinking about renting a Bungalow and that way we can save on meals although i'll have to make my own bed but i guess i can deal. i'm pretty excited. my mom said that when she comes down for christmas she is going to teach me how to make a lot of traditional Barbados foods. she can't can't make stuff as awesome as my grandma does but i guess i can learn the basics. haha
so i've been watching degrassi. and it's like any other teen drama. half the kids don't have any parents, someone gets raped blah blah etc. but i was watching and people have been stealing people's boyfriends left and right and i was thinking how much that fucking suuucks. like your best friend TELLS you to break up with your bf bc she has been lusting after him for years and then practically the same day she is already on a date with him? i mean DAMN she didn't even give you a second to let it all sink in. pretty sheisty. i know it's all high school bullshit and most of those relationships don't really matter bc thats not who you end up with anyhow most of the time unless you are highschool sweethearts. but do you know how ANGRY i would be if my bff started to date my bf the second after we broke up? you wouldn't even be able to talk about how much it sucks with her bc she would be too busy getting her rocks off with him! sloppy seconds much? i mean it's all good to like who you want to like and think that if you both feel the same way why shouln't you be together but it still blows really hard for your friend. and such is life. hahahaha