im so "iting" happy (as meredith and i would say)
alright so ive been having suuuuuuuch a great time in california. i really could see myself living out here (just not in LA).....i need to take a trip to san fransisco with a few certain people next year
;-) ben and i went to a work out class at his gym this morning which was sooooo much fun. ive been running three miles every day while we were here because we've been eating so effing much. but its good im totally in love with running. we saw the king tut exhibit at LACMA it was pretty cool. i forgot how much i enjoy ancient history (ill take some of those classes to fulfill wutever history reqs i have unless i go to smith or hamilton). ben and i went shopping in west hollywood today and totally bonded. ok west hollywood is really gay fyi the guys were gorgeous...but compeltely off limits hahaha because they're totally gay. there is so much wrong with what i just said its funny. but ill go into a friends only entry on that note.
so i think i should probably talk to mer and sam. its long over due. sam's gonna be easier than mere. sam already knows but never talked to me about it. so im not dropping a complete bomb. like i feel bad for not being honest but then again she told some people so like that cancels out my sympathy. well mostly. who the hell am i kidding...im a jew jewish guilt is what we do best. of course i still feel bad. however mere is the one i do honestly feel terrible about. but its so hard.... ugh...i hate this.
so im pissed that i missed AS on the day off from camp in between sessions but we're gonna see each other this week in the evening sometime. ok i dont know what i was thinking a few nights ago....i really really really dont i think i was just tired and we havent seen eachother in a long time and i wasnt feeling great last time we saw eachother so i was not very touchy feely, but OMG its crazy how much i miss and cant wait till we see eachother. i got the cutest/sweetest txt message "The moment i see you this week i'm going to kiss you, and there's nothing you can do about it ;-)" before that txt i was sooooooooo typing the same thing but of course less romantically cuz god forbid i ever say anything seriously lol i was thinking more along the lines of we need to have a make out fest......im glad i didnt say that hehe. its weird though i totally have AS on the brain. like i was bored at dinner last night and i was totally off in my own world thinking about AS. it totally sux that we only have the summer together and really not that much of it. i mean id just LOVE to be able to spend like two days in a row together-thatd be awesome i mean all the other couples i know do that over the summer alot and they love doing it but wutever. im totally happy with us the way we are anyway.
i realize ive been wrong calling it a summer fling because we are in a really good comitted relationship...its eerily too good. its like AS is totally awesome and nothing that bothers me or anything....we just had such shitty timing. and yeah its only gonna last the summer but im gonna stop calling it a fling. that was really stupid of me. im sorry babe! and as some of my buddies said "well if you two are single over the vacations you always have the good vacation hook up" haha can you guess that two BOYS said that to me. lol that just wreaks of boy
i cant believe its almost august. this summer has been surreal...completely i have never had such a good time in my life. between field hockey, college searching/looking at my awesome future, CL, my kidnappings/orgies...hahah wutever they want to call um, new friends, old friends, relaxation, running, and AS, this summer has been just unbelievable. im totally high on life.
this entry was long, vague and involved a lack of names and some subject matter cuz i felt like a public entry for a california change.....im now gonna go and dream of AS---im such a dork. but i love being that dork. ok but seriously having been so long since we last saw one another its like all this build up/tension (NOT bad tension...the really good kind of tension) that its sooo gonna rock to see one another...ok ive rambled on way too long about this but i needed to get it out hehe....THE END
;-) ben and i went to a work out class at his gym this morning which was sooooo much fun. ive been running three miles every day while we were here because we've been eating so effing much. but its good im totally in love with running. we saw the king tut exhibit at LACMA it was pretty cool. i forgot how much i enjoy ancient history (ill take some of those classes to fulfill wutever history reqs i have unless i go to smith or hamilton). ben and i went shopping in west hollywood today and totally bonded. ok west hollywood is really gay fyi the guys were gorgeous...but compeltely off limits hahaha because they're totally gay. there is so much wrong with what i just said its funny. but ill go into a friends only entry on that note.
so i think i should probably talk to mer and sam. its long over due. sam's gonna be easier than mere. sam already knows but never talked to me about it. so im not dropping a complete bomb. like i feel bad for not being honest but then again she told some people so like that cancels out my sympathy. well mostly. who the hell am i kidding...im a jew jewish guilt is what we do best. of course i still feel bad. however mere is the one i do honestly feel terrible about. but its so hard.... ugh...i hate this.
so im pissed that i missed AS on the day off from camp in between sessions but we're gonna see each other this week in the evening sometime. ok i dont know what i was thinking a few nights ago....i really really really dont i think i was just tired and we havent seen eachother in a long time and i wasnt feeling great last time we saw eachother so i was not very touchy feely, but OMG its crazy how much i miss and cant wait till we see eachother. i got the cutest/sweetest txt message "The moment i see you this week i'm going to kiss you, and there's nothing you can do about it ;-)" before that txt i was sooooooooo typing the same thing but of course less romantically cuz god forbid i ever say anything seriously lol i was thinking more along the lines of we need to have a make out fest......im glad i didnt say that hehe. its weird though i totally have AS on the brain. like i was bored at dinner last night and i was totally off in my own world thinking about AS. it totally sux that we only have the summer together and really not that much of it. i mean id just LOVE to be able to spend like two days in a row together-thatd be awesome i mean all the other couples i know do that over the summer alot and they love doing it but wutever. im totally happy with us the way we are anyway.
i realize ive been wrong calling it a summer fling because we are in a really good comitted relationship...its eerily too good. its like AS is totally awesome and nothing that bothers me or anything....we just had such shitty timing. and yeah its only gonna last the summer but im gonna stop calling it a fling. that was really stupid of me. im sorry babe! and as some of my buddies said "well if you two are single over the vacations you always have the good vacation hook up" haha can you guess that two BOYS said that to me. lol that just wreaks of boy
i cant believe its almost august. this summer has been surreal...completely i have never had such a good time in my life. between field hockey, college searching/looking at my awesome future, CL, my kidnappings/orgies...hahah wutever they want to call um, new friends, old friends, relaxation, running, and AS, this summer has been just unbelievable. im totally high on life.
this entry was long, vague and involved a lack of names and some subject matter cuz i felt like a public entry for a california change.....im now gonna go and dream of AS---im such a dork. but i love being that dork. ok but seriously having been so long since we last saw one another its like all this build up/tension (NOT bad tension...the really good kind of tension) that its sooo gonna rock to see one another...ok ive rambled on way too long about this but i needed to get it out hehe....THE END