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[passionrlsusall]

My boss thinks I'm doing a great job and is happy with me.  My bosses always like me, to be all conceited about it :). Sometimes I agree that I'm doing well and taking it all quite seriously and giving it my best.  Like now, pretty much.  Other times I'm not sure completely where they're coming from, but as long as they're always thinking it!

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[sedeara]

Ugh, I hated those conversations, too -- sex, and relationships, and feeling like the only person in the world who had nothing "real" to contribute. I would usually stay silent or say cryptic things that, while not lies, implied that I had more experience than I did. I don't know why I couldn't just come out and be honest -- I got a little better at it as I got older -- it's not like I murdered someone. I'm still not sure why that gap between those who are having sex and those who aren't has to feel so wide. It's really not that big a part of life.

I remember when I worked with teenagers and I was in my twenties, feeling uncomfortable knowing that some of them were more sexually/relationally experienced than I was!

I used to have the feeling of wanting someone there to appreciate me in the moments I felt really sexy/sexual, too. This may or may not make you feel better, but I've found that in a relationship, it's still often me noticing my own sex appeal -- you don't always get that validation from your partner just because there are so many distractions -- but it still feels nice to notice it for yourself. :)

[passionrlsusall]

I've usually stuck to crypticness when it comes to my dating/sex experience too. Now I typically am willing to say something about having little experience. Still usually in a flippant sort of way I don't delve further into.

Yeah, I guess it's good to notice for myself that I look good, but it feels almost useless when someone else isn't attracted to me for it.