The Big 20!
So it's my 20th Birthday today and I have reached an extreme turning point in my life.
I have learned so much over the past 20 years...
1. The meaning of life: It is better to have loved then to have never loved at all. (My new reason to live is to once again feel the feelings that are called love. The pain is more then worth while. It's just extremely hard to heal afterward.)
2. Time stops for no man nor woman. (No matter how fast you try to do things they're never getting done in time for you to have some space for yourself. The only thing that you can do is try your hardest to move along with time. Racing time never works!)
3. Always try your best. (In a stressful industrial society man must work at his best to overcome all and add to the surplus. There is little room for error, but if one should occur then one should learn from this error.)
4. Friendship is what binds us. (I have had numerous friends throughout my life and I know that it was worth having each and every one of them regardless of our current status. Friends will pull you up off the ground after you've been burned and someone has pissed on your ashes. Friends provide us with miniature Therapy sessions. Use them to your advantage and in return for their friendship give to them yours.)
5. Feeling sorry for oneself will get one nowhere. (Suicide is selfish. There is always someone on this planet who would miss you when you're gone. People need each other. Suicide should never be considered nor carried out. A person is too fragile to constantly be thinking of the numerous ways in which they can off themself. This WILL ruin your mind. Trust me I know. The only thing that you should think about is all the reasons why you WANT to live.)
6. Take responsibility of your own actions. (Not everyone, but nearly everyone has the ability to make there own decisions on this planet. People need to fess up and claim what they have done despite what the damage is. Everyone makes mistakes. To sin is human.)
7. Education is the key to success. (Without being properly educated it is a miracle for anyone to get anywhere in this world. I've continued my education throughout my whole life and I hope that I never stop learning.)
8. Nobody is perfect. (No matter how hard we try, we will never be perfect. Woman try their hardest to perfect every flaw that they have physically, but it tears them up on the inside emotionally and mentally. I am a perfectionist and I love to do things right and feel bad when they turn out wrong, but I know that things are what they are so that we can choose to do them the way that we do. A man thinks in the method of; if at first you don't succeed then try again. This is a type of trial and error. Decisions are the glue that holds this world together.)
With these eight simple factors people should be able to find a new meaning to the way that they think. I know that I did. I used to be constantly down on myself, but now I feel like I'm doing all right. I always give it my all and if things don't turn out my way then I deal with it. My parents and friends have made me into the wonderful person that I am and can be, but society as a whole has turned me into this mostrosity who finds it so hard to ask for help. I used to believe that the best way to do things was on my own. Now I realize that the best way to do things is to get help from others if you are struggling. They will be there for you and help you through everything. Thanks everyone.
I'm getting over this relationship problem that I had. It will take me years to fully heal if in fact I ever do, but my heart has returned to me. I feel like it will always be partially empty, but maybe one day I will have it overflowing again. I grew a new heart that very same night that I lost it.
My friends and family were all there for me the second that they found out and even though I tried my hardest to push them away, they forged past my anger and frustration and made me better again. When I left the dorms I had intentions of doing something awful, but I ended up venting my rage for my situation over the internet in my second to last post. I returned within' an hour and a half and my roommate was about to go looking for me. He was setting up a group of people to find me! That made me feel good inside.
Then my mom called and talked to me. I got to hear the comforting words of my brother and he told me that everything would be all right. He was right about that. Everything would be all right and I know that now because it is.
I couldn't feel more right up here walking the American Dream and doing my best to become a better man. I WILL have a job that I like one day and that is what matters most to me. Too much time of these American's lives is spent at the workplace doing things that they don't want to do instead of being with the ones that they love. I can't have that. I refuse to. I will fight that until the day I die and use every once of energy that I have left in this body to make this life of mine worth while.
I am SO STRONG now!!
So yeah... On Saturday we had a Rap Battle! It was awesome. Check out the pics.
http://www.angelfire.com/psy/chrisatmtu/RapBattle.html
I have learned so much over the past 20 years...
1. The meaning of life: It is better to have loved then to have never loved at all. (My new reason to live is to once again feel the feelings that are called love. The pain is more then worth while. It's just extremely hard to heal afterward.)
2. Time stops for no man nor woman. (No matter how fast you try to do things they're never getting done in time for you to have some space for yourself. The only thing that you can do is try your hardest to move along with time. Racing time never works!)
3. Always try your best. (In a stressful industrial society man must work at his best to overcome all and add to the surplus. There is little room for error, but if one should occur then one should learn from this error.)
4. Friendship is what binds us. (I have had numerous friends throughout my life and I know that it was worth having each and every one of them regardless of our current status. Friends will pull you up off the ground after you've been burned and someone has pissed on your ashes. Friends provide us with miniature Therapy sessions. Use them to your advantage and in return for their friendship give to them yours.)
5. Feeling sorry for oneself will get one nowhere. (Suicide is selfish. There is always someone on this planet who would miss you when you're gone. People need each other. Suicide should never be considered nor carried out. A person is too fragile to constantly be thinking of the numerous ways in which they can off themself. This WILL ruin your mind. Trust me I know. The only thing that you should think about is all the reasons why you WANT to live.)
6. Take responsibility of your own actions. (Not everyone, but nearly everyone has the ability to make there own decisions on this planet. People need to fess up and claim what they have done despite what the damage is. Everyone makes mistakes. To sin is human.)
7. Education is the key to success. (Without being properly educated it is a miracle for anyone to get anywhere in this world. I've continued my education throughout my whole life and I hope that I never stop learning.)
8. Nobody is perfect. (No matter how hard we try, we will never be perfect. Woman try their hardest to perfect every flaw that they have physically, but it tears them up on the inside emotionally and mentally. I am a perfectionist and I love to do things right and feel bad when they turn out wrong, but I know that things are what they are so that we can choose to do them the way that we do. A man thinks in the method of; if at first you don't succeed then try again. This is a type of trial and error. Decisions are the glue that holds this world together.)
With these eight simple factors people should be able to find a new meaning to the way that they think. I know that I did. I used to be constantly down on myself, but now I feel like I'm doing all right. I always give it my all and if things don't turn out my way then I deal with it. My parents and friends have made me into the wonderful person that I am and can be, but society as a whole has turned me into this mostrosity who finds it so hard to ask for help. I used to believe that the best way to do things was on my own. Now I realize that the best way to do things is to get help from others if you are struggling. They will be there for you and help you through everything. Thanks everyone.
I'm getting over this relationship problem that I had. It will take me years to fully heal if in fact I ever do, but my heart has returned to me. I feel like it will always be partially empty, but maybe one day I will have it overflowing again. I grew a new heart that very same night that I lost it.
My friends and family were all there for me the second that they found out and even though I tried my hardest to push them away, they forged past my anger and frustration and made me better again. When I left the dorms I had intentions of doing something awful, but I ended up venting my rage for my situation over the internet in my second to last post. I returned within' an hour and a half and my roommate was about to go looking for me. He was setting up a group of people to find me! That made me feel good inside.
Then my mom called and talked to me. I got to hear the comforting words of my brother and he told me that everything would be all right. He was right about that. Everything would be all right and I know that now because it is.
I couldn't feel more right up here walking the American Dream and doing my best to become a better man. I WILL have a job that I like one day and that is what matters most to me. Too much time of these American's lives is spent at the workplace doing things that they don't want to do instead of being with the ones that they love. I can't have that. I refuse to. I will fight that until the day I die and use every once of energy that I have left in this body to make this life of mine worth while.
I am SO STRONG now!!
So yeah... On Saturday we had a Rap Battle! It was awesome. Check out the pics.
http://www.angelfire.com/psy/chrisatmtu/RapBattle.html