Feeling Better
Okay so I was acting a little bit like a dick in my last post. I am feeling a LOT better now. I was definitely raging. I couldn't understand why she would leave me.
Oh well...
I spoke with her today. I'm REALLY worried about her. She told me about everything and how everything is going in her life. NOT GOOD! It scared me. I wish that I could be there to help her. I can only hope that this new boyfriend of hers will take good care of her because she will no longer let me take care of her.
We are still going to be Best Friends. I practically had to beg her to listen to me when she was on the internet. It sucked so bad. She didn't want to talk to me because she thought that I was angry with her. It wasn't her that I was angry at. I could never be mad at her. It was her behavior. I couldn't believe it. That's pretty much why I wrote my last post. I felt terrible.
I still feel terrible about everything that I've said. I know that I shouldn't though. I was NOT in the wrong for breaking up with her. I have certain morals and standards and I refuse to share the one that I love with anyone else. That's why I couldn't stay with her. I would end up being one of two. I can't have that. I would have been more hurt if I would have stayed with her.
An anchor has been lifted off my chest now that I know that she still cares about me and still wants to be friends. I will be her friend and I still look forward to coming home so that I can get a hug from her and see her beautiful face in person once more.
It's 4:20 in the damn morning!! I have to get up in about 3 and a half hours. This is gonna suck. Good morning for those who read this. I'm gonna go to bed now.
Oh well...
I spoke with her today. I'm REALLY worried about her. She told me about everything and how everything is going in her life. NOT GOOD! It scared me. I wish that I could be there to help her. I can only hope that this new boyfriend of hers will take good care of her because she will no longer let me take care of her.
We are still going to be Best Friends. I practically had to beg her to listen to me when she was on the internet. It sucked so bad. She didn't want to talk to me because she thought that I was angry with her. It wasn't her that I was angry at. I could never be mad at her. It was her behavior. I couldn't believe it. That's pretty much why I wrote my last post. I felt terrible.
I still feel terrible about everything that I've said. I know that I shouldn't though. I was NOT in the wrong for breaking up with her. I have certain morals and standards and I refuse to share the one that I love with anyone else. That's why I couldn't stay with her. I would end up being one of two. I can't have that. I would have been more hurt if I would have stayed with her.
An anchor has been lifted off my chest now that I know that she still cares about me and still wants to be friends. I will be her friend and I still look forward to coming home so that I can get a hug from her and see her beautiful face in person once more.
It's 4:20 in the damn morning!! I have to get up in about 3 and a half hours. This is gonna suck. Good morning for those who read this. I'm gonna go to bed now.