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Sup everybody. Ok well..uh...i dont know anything right now. Things are actually crappy, but theres still this inner drive in me, something that gives me energy. Sorry guys if ive been ditching you. I just dont lke being in big groups of people. i love having friends, just i dont want em all at once. I dont mean this negatively or anything, its just a thing i have. Im weird lke that.
Well anyways, have you ever had that feeling that your dreams can never come true. Like, you see those stereo-typical romantic moments in movies, and you sometimes, dont you just wish that could happen to you? One of my friends, im not gonna name names, she hasnt really had a boyfriend before, and shes a total dreamer. Well, in anycase, i honestly thought with all she was expecting from a guy, that she wouldnt find a guy who would meet her expectations. bUT when she told me how she met this guy, and told me how romantic everything was..i just paused, and realised, that i dont know what love is. Seriously, i dont. yEAH i mean there is love, like close friends..but im not lookin for that kinda love. Its that love, that i always thought was stupid, its that love that i thought was just hopelessly unrealistic,thats what i want. And now, i just wish, i had someone like that. I know, this doenst sound right from me. Im usually the one who is all like "i just wanna have fun". but now, i want something true. and i can only do that with someone im attracted to, who likes me for me, who has the personality that makes me feel like hes someone i could just feel good with. I think ive found someone, but i dont know. Im clueless. I feel like Cher in Clueless. But seriously, there are two guys HAHA they both start with "J". what a coincidence, in anycase,
hmm...letting this out made me feeel soo much better now.. it just made me realize TO TAKE CHANCES. i mean, im not shy, if i want something, ill get it. or ill be emo for a month. hahaa fuckers, and when im emo, i smoke, and i quit, so theres no chance of that shit happenin. HEELLL YESSSSSSSSSSS
yay im done here. OOOOH YEHAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
Well anyways, have you ever had that feeling that your dreams can never come true. Like, you see those stereo-typical romantic moments in movies, and you sometimes, dont you just wish that could happen to you? One of my friends, im not gonna name names, she hasnt really had a boyfriend before, and shes a total dreamer. Well, in anycase, i honestly thought with all she was expecting from a guy, that she wouldnt find a guy who would meet her expectations. bUT when she told me how she met this guy, and told me how romantic everything was..i just paused, and realised, that i dont know what love is. Seriously, i dont. yEAH i mean there is love, like close friends..but im not lookin for that kinda love. Its that love, that i always thought was stupid, its that love that i thought was just hopelessly unrealistic,thats what i want. And now, i just wish, i had someone like that. I know, this doenst sound right from me. Im usually the one who is all like "i just wanna have fun". but now, i want something true. and i can only do that with someone im attracted to, who likes me for me, who has the personality that makes me feel like hes someone i could just feel good with. I think ive found someone, but i dont know. Im clueless. I feel like Cher in Clueless. But seriously, there are two guys HAHA they both start with "J". what a coincidence, in anycase,
hmm...letting this out made me feeel soo much better now.. it just made me realize TO TAKE CHANCES. i mean, im not shy, if i want something, ill get it. or ill be emo for a month. hahaa fuckers, and when im emo, i smoke, and i quit, so theres no chance of that shit happenin. HEELLL YESSSSSSSSSSS
yay im done here. OOOOH YEHAAAAAAAAAAAAA.