just some stuff
1. Family
Both my parents getting financially crushed. My father, who has been nothing but conservative in his financial decisions; he's done nothing but make safe decisions and has lost probably about the equivalent of over 20 years of retirement. My mom took a lot risks on trying to make money in the housing industry and now it's coming back to bite her and she is in a debt that I'm not so sure she can recover from. One of my sisters has a 5 year old child that she has basically raised by herself (and has done an absolutely amazing job, she is a fantastic mother), but I can't imagine how tough it is for her financially to do everything she does for him as a single parent and a houseowner. My other sister suffers from MS and goes through so much pain all the time. There is no cure for it. My grandma probably has some form of dimentia as she doesn't even remember when I visit her and repeatedly asks the same questions over and over and has gone from violently not wanting to return to her room at the home to almost giving up and accepting what things are in a depressed manner.
2. I want to be real here, but for some reason I'm finding it really hard to be as in touch with what's going on inside me as I was last night in the Bible Study.
3. Life
I wonder if I'm going to be able to give my future family what it needs to live a life that they can be happy with. I wonder how I will do that, and what type of man/father/husband I will be.
4. Tater tots are absolutely delicious, but way better with ketchup and I thought I didn't have any ketchup, but I found some.
5. I'm oddly excited about TEAM USA in the World Baseball Classic. I've never been much of a fan. Too prideful I guess, I always thought I should be playing.
6. There are people that I miss like crazy.
7. I miss playing baseball like crazy.
8. I wonder if I'm a good person or if I'm two-faced (or 3 or 4 or 5 faced for that matter) constantly.
9. I lust like it's my third job.
10. In the past couple weeks I've actually enjoyed running (I never thought I'd say it).
11. I rarely find myself passionate anymore.
12. Am I strong enough to make tough decisions?
13. What the heck is going on?
more to come...
Both my parents getting financially crushed. My father, who has been nothing but conservative in his financial decisions; he's done nothing but make safe decisions and has lost probably about the equivalent of over 20 years of retirement. My mom took a lot risks on trying to make money in the housing industry and now it's coming back to bite her and she is in a debt that I'm not so sure she can recover from. One of my sisters has a 5 year old child that she has basically raised by herself (and has done an absolutely amazing job, she is a fantastic mother), but I can't imagine how tough it is for her financially to do everything she does for him as a single parent and a houseowner. My other sister suffers from MS and goes through so much pain all the time. There is no cure for it. My grandma probably has some form of dimentia as she doesn't even remember when I visit her and repeatedly asks the same questions over and over and has gone from violently not wanting to return to her room at the home to almost giving up and accepting what things are in a depressed manner.
2. I want to be real here, but for some reason I'm finding it really hard to be as in touch with what's going on inside me as I was last night in the Bible Study.
3. Life
I wonder if I'm going to be able to give my future family what it needs to live a life that they can be happy with. I wonder how I will do that, and what type of man/father/husband I will be.
4. Tater tots are absolutely delicious, but way better with ketchup and I thought I didn't have any ketchup, but I found some.
5. I'm oddly excited about TEAM USA in the World Baseball Classic. I've never been much of a fan. Too prideful I guess, I always thought I should be playing.
6. There are people that I miss like crazy.
7. I miss playing baseball like crazy.
8. I wonder if I'm a good person or if I'm two-faced (or 3 or 4 or 5 faced for that matter) constantly.
9. I lust like it's my third job.
10. In the past couple weeks I've actually enjoyed running (I never thought I'd say it).
11. I rarely find myself passionate anymore.
12. Am I strong enough to make tough decisions?
13. What the heck is going on?
more to come...