Hello Livejournal
This thing did become quite unnecessary for multiple reasons. I stopped being 12 and using it as a way to try to communicate to people that I didn't want to think I was trying to talk to...but really was. Does that sentence even make sense? I think not. Anywho, you get my point. By "you" I mean the very general sense because I really don't think anyone will read this, but hey I'm typing anyway. Another reason I guess is because I keep an actual handwritten journal of sorts. It's more of a cross between a journal and a prayer book. Well anyway, Katie mentioned something about this website a couple days ago on the phone and here I am based solely on that fact. (By the way Katie, if you do by some remote chance read this, I know you made a super secret entry in March of this year, I still remember how to be the creepiest of stalkers on here apparently)
Ummmm, I will actually put this thing to some use and update you folk(s) on my life. Let's start by listing priorities in a very specific order.
(1) God, Christ
(2) Family, friends (I have this intuition like family really should be above friends, but when I look at my life and how I think things really should be, my closest friends pretty much are my family as cliche as that sounds or is, I believe it to be fully true and I believe that's how God wants us to have it...we have a family in Christ...there's a lot of depth to this idea and it sounds pretty bad with all that I've said here but I'll gladly have an extended conversation with any of you who actually care)
(3) School (I finally graduate in December...hopefully heh)
(4) Ministries at school (Biola Athletics Ministry and Baseball Bible Study)
(5) Coaching
(6) Funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Now this list is not to say that 6 is unimportant because I think it is very important, especially if I wish to remain sane. I will put everything I have into all six of these things. There are other things in life that I will also do, but these are the important ones and the ones I will make a concerted effort to keep as a main part of my life.
Other updates. No girlfriend, recently...by choice. While I still do have that innate desire just about every human being has--especially a 23 year old single one--I do realize at this point that I wouldn't be able to give a girl what she deserves at this point. I think it has taken me the past three years of molding my personality in such a way that I could emotionally, spiritually, and mentally take care of a woman and give her all that any and every woman deserves and that I'm finally at that point. Now, though, I need to get my life on track and get a consistent and decent cash flow. While I don't feel that the cash flow is by any means necessary to hold a decent relationship, it's just something I want to be able to give to her simply because she's worth it. I want to take her places and surprise her and give her some freakin' sweet ass presents. She will walk into where ever we go and people will be like, "What the hell is that woman doing with that boy?" and then I'll say, "I don't know, lucky me." She will be the center of attention.
On from that touchy, feely, make me feel like less of a man subject. I have some big things planned for the Bible Study this year and for coaching as well. I hope they come to fruition as they are in my head.
Lastly, one of my newest and greatest aims for the near future. I want to humble myself. I want to lift everyone else's name above mine. Most importantly, I want to lift God's name above everyone else's. So I'll take this time to say, I appreciate every one of the people I know in my life for everything beautiful they are, and they truly are beautiful (guys please save the homophobia, women are too dang hot for me to go that way). Someday I will be able to individually affirm all the qualities I love about each of them, but for now, as a whole, my friends and family are freakin' studly. And God...well you are my Father, holy and true. You love in the purest and rawest form than anyone or thing can love. Your power and knowledge is unending and you use it for the best possible good that is possible. Without you, I would not have breath and existence would cease to exist. I'm sorry that humans have failed you and placed themselves and idols above you. I'm sorry that I've been nothing but horrible that I am the worst of all the humans that have sinned against you. I thank you, though, that despite that your love endures and you have forgiven me and count me as holy. This because the one human who lived an infallible life, Christ, died and rose again 3 days later. He beat death once, and someday he'll come back to beat it twice.
...veritas et caritas...
truth and love
Ummmm, I will actually put this thing to some use and update you folk(s) on my life. Let's start by listing priorities in a very specific order.
(1) God, Christ
(2) Family, friends (I have this intuition like family really should be above friends, but when I look at my life and how I think things really should be, my closest friends pretty much are my family as cliche as that sounds or is, I believe it to be fully true and I believe that's how God wants us to have it...we have a family in Christ...there's a lot of depth to this idea and it sounds pretty bad with all that I've said here but I'll gladly have an extended conversation with any of you who actually care)
(3) School (I finally graduate in December...hopefully heh)
(4) Ministries at school (Biola Athletics Ministry and Baseball Bible Study)
(5) Coaching
(6) Funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Now this list is not to say that 6 is unimportant because I think it is very important, especially if I wish to remain sane. I will put everything I have into all six of these things. There are other things in life that I will also do, but these are the important ones and the ones I will make a concerted effort to keep as a main part of my life.
Other updates. No girlfriend, recently...by choice. While I still do have that innate desire just about every human being has--especially a 23 year old single one--I do realize at this point that I wouldn't be able to give a girl what she deserves at this point. I think it has taken me the past three years of molding my personality in such a way that I could emotionally, spiritually, and mentally take care of a woman and give her all that any and every woman deserves and that I'm finally at that point. Now, though, I need to get my life on track and get a consistent and decent cash flow. While I don't feel that the cash flow is by any means necessary to hold a decent relationship, it's just something I want to be able to give to her simply because she's worth it. I want to take her places and surprise her and give her some freakin' sweet ass presents. She will walk into where ever we go and people will be like, "What the hell is that woman doing with that boy?" and then I'll say, "I don't know, lucky me." She will be the center of attention.
On from that touchy, feely, make me feel like less of a man subject. I have some big things planned for the Bible Study this year and for coaching as well. I hope they come to fruition as they are in my head.
Lastly, one of my newest and greatest aims for the near future. I want to humble myself. I want to lift everyone else's name above mine. Most importantly, I want to lift God's name above everyone else's. So I'll take this time to say, I appreciate every one of the people I know in my life for everything beautiful they are, and they truly are beautiful (guys please save the homophobia, women are too dang hot for me to go that way). Someday I will be able to individually affirm all the qualities I love about each of them, but for now, as a whole, my friends and family are freakin' studly. And God...well you are my Father, holy and true. You love in the purest and rawest form than anyone or thing can love. Your power and knowledge is unending and you use it for the best possible good that is possible. Without you, I would not have breath and existence would cease to exist. I'm sorry that humans have failed you and placed themselves and idols above you. I'm sorry that I've been nothing but horrible that I am the worst of all the humans that have sinned against you. I thank you, though, that despite that your love endures and you have forgiven me and count me as holy. This because the one human who lived an infallible life, Christ, died and rose again 3 days later. He beat death once, and someday he'll come back to beat it twice.
...veritas et caritas...
truth and love