Happy fuckin new year.

[pas_assez]

So I worry. So I tend to make them number one. I seem to cripple myself. I talk and only expect the best. I expect so much only to settle for the second best thing. I choke on my own hopes. I melt. I fall. Drive me down to hate. Drive me down to lose faith. Drive me to give up. I'm a global travesty. I always want to be somewhere else. I always want to be something else. I always want to be seen differently. I want to let go. I don't want to turn around anymore. I don't want to jump on your path anymore. I don't want a lot of things that I have. I want something different. Dammit. Choke on it, I will.

My new year's resolution:
- work as much as possible
- remove her from every equation
- learn to not care
- learn to be cold
- focus on school
- focus on my project
- love and appreciate my parents more
- lose the jealousy
- lose the mind
- lose the emotion
- live for the best
- forget the worst
- laugh more
- change
- learn to deal
- only the best
- forget
- cry less
- stop talking my heart out
- ignore
- forget
- ignore
- forget
- forget
- drink more

this livejournal is closed. happy new year's everyone.