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I just watched sixteen candles. It reminded me of my courtship with Lindsey, except with a lot more partying. Wow, I actually spent the whole day working today. We didn't have to attend our usual senior class meeting today with mrs. Guzman, so it was very productive. So, now all I have to do is almost everything and then I am ready for exhibition. Fuck. Tomorrow is going to be entertaining hopefully.
I am pretty divided about school ending. On the one hand, I am more than ready to get done with high school and move on. I won't have to deal with the stress of senior exhibition, the teachers, the rules, or any of that fake bullshit that makes up most of Quest. However, as ready as I am to be done with high school, I am nowhere near ready enough to be without my friends. School is a great environment for me to hang out with all of my friends and its a great way to be able to be with Lindsey even if for an hour or so. Once school ends, I will be spending the majority of my time with my closest friends and probably won't see a lot of other people ever again. Once summer begins, its only three short months before I leave EVERYBODY behind and go to college. I can't expect Lindsey to go long-term in her first relationship, she's a freshman for christ's sake. That's too much to ask of her. With all of this stuff looming over me, its hard to live for the moment.
I am pretty divided about school ending. On the one hand, I am more than ready to get done with high school and move on. I won't have to deal with the stress of senior exhibition, the teachers, the rules, or any of that fake bullshit that makes up most of Quest. However, as ready as I am to be done with high school, I am nowhere near ready enough to be without my friends. School is a great environment for me to hang out with all of my friends and its a great way to be able to be with Lindsey even if for an hour or so. Once school ends, I will be spending the majority of my time with my closest friends and probably won't see a lot of other people ever again. Once summer begins, its only three short months before I leave EVERYBODY behind and go to college. I can't expect Lindsey to go long-term in her first relationship, she's a freshman for christ's sake. That's too much to ask of her. With all of this stuff looming over me, its hard to live for the moment.