i just sneezed.
i love my vanilla chapstick.
i just sneezed. wtf.
it takes more time than i've ever had
drains the life from me
makes me want to forget
as young as i was, i felt older back then
more disciplined, stronger and certain
but i was scared to death of eternity
i was saved by grace
but destroyed by naivety
and i lied to myself
and said it was for the best
so now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
i've disregarded what i was
now that i'm older
and i know much more than i did back then
but the more i learn
the more i can't understand
and i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink to much and don't believe in much of anything
and i lie to myself
and say "it's for the best."
we're moving forward, but holding ourselves back
and we're waiting on something that will never come
----
i dunno, just reminds me of me and a lot of my friends. a lot of our youth, i dunno. i listen to it and love my friends more than i already do. eeeek. i think too much<3333333333.
and this song.
and all our sins come back to haunt us in the end
to hang around and tap us on the shoulder
and smile
silent
it's all implied
"you'll die trying to live this down. you might as well forget it."
still, i'm convinced that wondering what if is the worst thing there is
so we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
and all these lines fall short of what i had in mind
a failed attempt to capsulize a feeling
so i just try and fail and try and try again
someday i swear i'm going to get it
because i'm convinced that giving in is the worst thing there is
so we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
we'll get over it
sad, strong, safe and sober
we'll move forward
and know where we went wrong
but "you can't go home again."
so we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be.
so anyway. yeah, jill and i hung out with mike. that was tons of fun-o. i <333 them sooooooooo much. we laid on the bleachers at the soccer field and talked. then we almost beat up these little kids. i owned that fight. they wanted me and jill to flash them. o.o wtf dude. so yeah, it was real fun. we got home, and then mommy drove jill home with me and mike.
then mikey and i went back to my house and watched down with love.
until 11:30 when it was over.
and his mommy picked him up. =D! weeee
so yes, now im here.
talking to JAMES WHO I HAVENT TALKED TO IN FOREVER.
and jillian deary.
call my cell people. 581 9914.
you know the area code.
later.<3
i just sneezed. wtf.
it takes more time than i've ever had
drains the life from me
makes me want to forget
as young as i was, i felt older back then
more disciplined, stronger and certain
but i was scared to death of eternity
i was saved by grace
but destroyed by naivety
and i lied to myself
and said it was for the best
so now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
i've disregarded what i was
now that i'm older
and i know much more than i did back then
but the more i learn
the more i can't understand
and i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink to much and don't believe in much of anything
and i lie to myself
and say "it's for the best."
we're moving forward, but holding ourselves back
and we're waiting on something that will never come
----
i dunno, just reminds me of me and a lot of my friends. a lot of our youth, i dunno. i listen to it and love my friends more than i already do. eeeek. i think too much<3333333333.
and this song.
and all our sins come back to haunt us in the end
to hang around and tap us on the shoulder
and smile
silent
it's all implied
"you'll die trying to live this down. you might as well forget it."
still, i'm convinced that wondering what if is the worst thing there is
so we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
and all these lines fall short of what i had in mind
a failed attempt to capsulize a feeling
so i just try and fail and try and try again
someday i swear i'm going to get it
because i'm convinced that giving in is the worst thing there is
so we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
we'll get over it
sad, strong, safe and sober
we'll move forward
and know where we went wrong
but "you can't go home again."
so we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be.
so anyway. yeah, jill and i hung out with mike. that was tons of fun-o. i <333 them sooooooooo much. we laid on the bleachers at the soccer field and talked. then we almost beat up these little kids. i owned that fight. they wanted me and jill to flash them. o.o wtf dude. so yeah, it was real fun. we got home, and then mommy drove jill home with me and mike.
then mikey and i went back to my house and watched down with love.
until 11:30 when it was over.
and his mommy picked him up. =D! weeee
so yes, now im here.
talking to JAMES WHO I HAVENT TALKED TO IN FOREVER.
and jillian deary.
call my cell people. 581 9914.
you know the area code.
later.<3