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It's the third day that we've been in D.C., and tonight My cousin, Nina, Benny, Toufic, Sarah, and I went to 1223. We were all piss drunk and for the first time in 6 months I was happy. I told Leila about not being a virgin thing and I saw Ardavan. He was the same as ever still persistent. I really wanted to be alone with him but I dont think thats going to happen. Not this trip atleast cause I have Benny, Nina, Leila, and Bob up my ass all the time. I wish it was like last time when me and sarah just went to his house. I just want to see him for my own sanity. I want to see him so i know that I am not the must unimportant person in the world as others have made me feel.