Hey! Last night and today were really fun.
Yesterday afternoon we had a goodbye party for someone leaving our service. So I had to organise it with my colleague and we decorated everything and it was nice and all.
And guess what? The married man had to make a goodbye speech, but mainly talked about me. I mean he congratulated me for organising the thing. The thing is I just helped, my colleague did most of the work. But when he said that, she looked at me with a smile that says:" We don't know what he's talking about!"!
Yeah, he was always mentionning me... Funny... How did I react to this spontaneous and unexpected public display of affection?
I stood there, close to my colleagues, dignified but blushing in a distant sort of way. I acted as if I didn't care about what he was saying... when I was aware that I became the center of attention of the whole team at that moment. Maybe they were thinking what is it with him always talking about her?
Anyway, that was really cool and I did enjoy the moment, even if I was realising at the same time that it only made my emotional void even bigger and my infatuation even more vivid. Things are not going to sort out. They are getting worse, and so is my frustration.
Then after work, I joined my friends Pauline, her cousin Benjamin, Basile and his girlfriend Dorothée for a drink before heading to Le Point Ephemere where Gogo Charlton and Louis XIV were playing.
I didn't know both bands but I like to discover bands on stage. I like the stage atmosphere and energy.
First band was French band from Paris called
Gogo Charlton . I really discovered them last night, and honestly they're a good band. Nice ballads, cools rythms, punchy melodies. They are four in the band, three guys sing. They play many instruments and so they are quite dynamic on stage. They're not static at all... I really liked them very very much. So I'm seeing them next week at the Paris Paris.
After them and lods of drinking and a ten minute peeing all my liquids were
Louis XIV. I didn't know them and they were really ok. Good Music and energy. The singer arrived with a ottle of red wine and had finished it at the end of the show. Obviously, he said that he was walking down Parisian streets and swore that he never saw beautiful girls as the ones in Paris. We loved it. Very sexy lyrics and attitude.
After the show, we all went to have a drink at the bar. And Jimmy, Louis XIV's bass player came in, and my friend Pauline who's a huge fan of him went to talk to him. When I left one hour later, they were still talking. I love you Pauline.
All in all, the night was great, the show too, and I went back home with a huge smile on my face.
Today, the married man had problems getting emails so he came to my office where his assistant, my colleague just in front of me, works. He asked her if he could write emails from her laptop. Obviously she accepted, and obviously I froze up and then relaxed. He was just in front of me, so close and yet so far!
My other colleague in the office asked me in front of him: " Are you ok Alexiel? Not too excited?!" I couls see the shadow of a smile and his eyes sparkle.
Then my colleagues left the office and I was left alone with him. So I asked him if he was ok, he said yes. He told me I looked tired. I told him I had gone out too much during the week. He asked me what I did, I told him. He was impressed that I still had energy for work!
Then I stopped from looking at my screen and told him "hurry up please, I cant work when you're there!" He looked pleasantly surprised and asked why. I told him I can't focus on my work when he is there, I am disconcerted. He couldn't believe and and said like he is innocent and doesn't understand a thing "Oh come on Alexiel, why are you saying such things!"
He must have stayed like half an hour. As I couldnt work, I decided to check the news on my favorite news provider bbc.co.uk. As I was reading, eh saw me frowning, so he asked why and I told him about the news. He was impressed! He must have thought not only I have big tits, I may also have a brain and know how to make it work...
He came three times like this today at the office and everytime i talked to him in front of my colleagues, so that they all know.
And no one is stupid about it. We're all smiling about it! I really like him and last night during Louis XIV sexy songs, I closed my eyes and thought about him, and... That was good but really frustrating!
I will never have him...