Finally an Update
Well, I am 17 years old now, as of April 20th for those who want to know. I think I am finally becoming happy with myself and I don't need X or any other guy to feel complete, I'm just me. Yeah sure for a while I didn't know what I wanted, whether I wanted to be bad but now I know that I've changed, I'm going to take risks, but I'm not going to be bad. I'm going to wait until I'm in love and I'm ready to have sex and I am going to put my dreams first. Right now I'm focusing on acting and school and my exercise and unless it's Hayden Christensen, I am very picky about guys. I am afraid of getting hurt because I know I am way too nice, I wear my heart on my sleeve and I trust way too easily, but I just try to be the good person. For the new year, I'm going to slim down a little more, the healthy way, i.e. not starving myself but exercising and eating sensibly, even sweets once or twice a week (I had 2 cookies today). I'm still figuring some things out, but I'm still me.