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wow today was quite a day. I slept over Dominics house last night. We watched X-men 2 although i swear we watched it last time... Andrew and Dominic said no, so we watched that... Andrew went home and Dominic and I went to bed. I had a lot last night with all the fighting from Ken. I know he means well but that doesn't mean what he is going is right. I don't want all the text messages. call me god damnit. i hate typing it all out. Don't call thousands of times and accuse me of being in love with somone else when you and everyone else knows that i am not. it's ridiculous and uncalled for. I love him as a friend and give him credit for trying buy i can't keep this up. It ruins my days, i think things would go a whole lot better if he were more laid back about it all. i don't have to say where i am am and who i a with 24/7. it's my choice. i am not dating so therefor i answer to no one. be my friend thats cool but don't expect me to keep trying when you constantly accuse me of trying for someone else. even if i was it's not of his business... but i am not. why do it? go with the flow. Anyway today i woke up and was still kinda tired. i showered and proceeded to andrews house to wake him up. i fought him for the bed and lost haha. eh whatever. oh and i lost my debit card. i left a message for my mom and she called me back and told me it was in kielys baby bag from the night before and that it was now at kielys moms house. shit! that girl could wipe me clean. so i had that canceled and ordered a new one. still kinda sucky though. we went to the mall and ate... i had orange chicken and white rice ORGASM! it was sooo good. Ran into Amanda which was cool. I haven't seen that girl in forever and a day. I met Bonnie, they seem to really click. that's cool i am happy for her. glad she is doing well. we then rented a movie and watched it at andrews house. I really liked the movie although i don't know if anyone else did. any movie that involves someone getting stabbed in the eye with an icicle and stabbed through the neck with a knife ranks high up there in my book. Andrew and I wrestled. I got my ass kicked but also got some aggression from the day out. it felt sooooo good. i was bottling shit up and it just tired me out. i will probably be one big bruise tomorrow but it just reminded me of the good ol' days like when me and my dad would wrestle and he would have me on the floor in a head lock and my step mom would yell at him hahaha. in one way i like that he doesn't sit there and be like oh i can't hurt you, you are a girl. cus i am very agressive when i want to be and i have no one to do it with. it was funny getting my ass kicked and getting right back up and trying again. i feel relieved. not that i was mad at him but he just happened to be the person who let me just get physical. i think dominic got mad so right when we got in the car i was like god that was fun taking out my anger. he laughed and i could tell he wanted to say something but he didn't. eh whatever. he told me tonight that he was waiting for andrew to drop me on my head and laugh as i was passed out. I don't think andrew would sit there and be like hahaha if i really did get hurt. i don't think anyone could do that. but i asked for it. i kept going back at it when he was egging me on. i could have stopped. if i thought i was seriously going to get hurt i wouldn't have done it. eh. anyway tonight i went to my aunts house with my mom and sister. it was cool, food was great. It's always cool to sit back and see your family and see what they have been up to. they are hilarious whe they all get together. I have work tomorrow at 7 in the morning (ew) til 3:30. i don't know what i am doing after, possibly going to andrews to drink and chill out for the night. i don't know it all depends on whos going to be there. it would be fun though. i haven't been drunk in a while. i think i could really use it after the week i have had. so i dunno we'll see. i not maybe dominic and i will hang out. i dunno maybe we will still drink. dominic said he's not sure he's going omorrow night to andrews even if i go cus he's not sure if he wants to deal with the "drama" that kinda hurt but eh. he said it wasn't me. then he said if he does go he probably won't drink incase he wants to leave if he gets mad. fine whatever but if i go it is not to worry about who is mad at who, it is about sitting back, relaxing, and drinking my night away... no drama ew. i got a package when i got home today. i knew what it was before i opened it. back in the army ken gave me a st louis cardinals bear. i loved it. i slept wit it in the army, it smelled like him i took it everywhere. well one day we couldn't find it. i was devestated that "shaw bear" was gone. i have pictures everything. ken and i always looked on ebay to see if we could find one. well he found one a couple days ago. he had it sent to my house. it's the exact same thing as the old one only brand new. in thr package he must have had the people write me a note cus it said "i found my way home. Shaw bear" It is one of the sweetest gestures in the world. i don't even know what to think. i love it but it reminds me of him and in the position i a in with him right now i don't know if that is good or bad. Well i will be sleeping with it tonight though. oh and kiely left today. just overall a very up and down rollercoaster day. but i wouldn't change it for anything. i love how my life has its ups and downs. keeps things interesting. Well thats all for tonight, i am going to hit the sack. good night