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I live the most boring and pathetic life. I'm never happy. :-D BUT I SURE DO FOOL PEOPLE! (hehe)
I'm good at pretending. I should be an actress. I might possibly be the most amazing person I know. I'm the only honest one I know at least. {well David is honest} I don't want to talk about him. I always ramble on to people about my life with him, but in all reality I think our relationship is getting worse every day. I love him, don't get me wrong, I need more attention. -I don't know if I should post this, I don't want to hurt his feelings.- It's not him, it's me. I annoy myself, I know I annoy him. I could take this more in depth but it's too late in the afternoon to be drowning myself out. I must smile, because I am attending Maryville High School, the school with the highest academic achievments ::envy me::. Hum, wonder if things will get better, somewhere.... someplace, I will find some happiness. I'm just sick of people in general, I enjoy spending time with myself then I do with anybody. I can't make anybody happy, and that's ok with me. This may sound self-centered, egocentric, etc etc. but I only need myself. I am happy with the way I am, I am happy with who I have grown to be, and I'm exactly where I want to be. I like being the lonely one (although I do tend to bitch about the lack of attention I recieve), I do like the sexual attention that I receive from my boyfriend, I like not being about to trust anybody but David, I like not having female friends, I like my mother smoking weed, I like my father being out of town, I like having nobody to depend on, I like quite time to myself. It's the best thing in the world. Honestly. Females fucking piss me off. But with that being said, so do the males. They tend to call us bitchy all the time, but out of all honesty they are just as bitchy if not worse. David has mood swings. David makes me feel like I do everything wrong, BUTTTT I do, and I'm not putting any blame on him. When me and David break up, it's going to be the hardest time of my life. I'm not dating anybody else, I'm going to use everybody to get what I want, cause I am a cold hearted bitch. :-D. David is the only man I will ever love, mark my words. He's amazing, and I love him so much. I'm lucky, and I take it for granted.. I try to change I really do, it's not worth it though. I always manage to do SOMETHING terribly wrong. BUT I've never cheated on him, I'm been honest with him the whole year we have spent together, and I've been supportive. That's all that I've ever wanted to give him, I'm never going to do him wrong. EVER.
Yeah people make me sick. I watched the notebook last night, and I was overwhelmed with jealousy. I want something like that. You know, maybe David was right. (pondering).....
I hate being a TA, I accomplish nothing, I either end up laying on the couches for 2 hours, or getting on the internet. I can't ever read here. BELL RANG! good bye
I'm good at pretending. I should be an actress. I might possibly be the most amazing person I know. I'm the only honest one I know at least. {well David is honest} I don't want to talk about him. I always ramble on to people about my life with him, but in all reality I think our relationship is getting worse every day. I love him, don't get me wrong, I need more attention. -I don't know if I should post this, I don't want to hurt his feelings.- It's not him, it's me. I annoy myself, I know I annoy him. I could take this more in depth but it's too late in the afternoon to be drowning myself out. I must smile, because I am attending Maryville High School, the school with the highest academic achievments ::envy me::. Hum, wonder if things will get better, somewhere.... someplace, I will find some happiness. I'm just sick of people in general, I enjoy spending time with myself then I do with anybody. I can't make anybody happy, and that's ok with me. This may sound self-centered, egocentric, etc etc. but I only need myself. I am happy with the way I am, I am happy with who I have grown to be, and I'm exactly where I want to be. I like being the lonely one (although I do tend to bitch about the lack of attention I recieve), I do like the sexual attention that I receive from my boyfriend, I like not being about to trust anybody but David, I like not having female friends, I like my mother smoking weed, I like my father being out of town, I like having nobody to depend on, I like quite time to myself. It's the best thing in the world. Honestly. Females fucking piss me off. But with that being said, so do the males. They tend to call us bitchy all the time, but out of all honesty they are just as bitchy if not worse. David has mood swings. David makes me feel like I do everything wrong, BUTTTT I do, and I'm not putting any blame on him. When me and David break up, it's going to be the hardest time of my life. I'm not dating anybody else, I'm going to use everybody to get what I want, cause I am a cold hearted bitch. :-D. David is the only man I will ever love, mark my words. He's amazing, and I love him so much. I'm lucky, and I take it for granted.. I try to change I really do, it's not worth it though. I always manage to do SOMETHING terribly wrong. BUT I've never cheated on him, I'm been honest with him the whole year we have spent together, and I've been supportive. That's all that I've ever wanted to give him, I'm never going to do him wrong. EVER.
Yeah people make me sick. I watched the notebook last night, and I was overwhelmed with jealousy. I want something like that. You know, maybe David was right. (pondering).....
I hate being a TA, I accomplish nothing, I either end up laying on the couches for 2 hours, or getting on the internet. I can't ever read here. BELL RANG! good bye