Applicable Entanglement
I sometimes lose myself in my own thoughts that I don't realize how far time has moved around me. Wednesday starts April, it's been three and a half months since I finished college, I've applied for jobs consistently, at the least weekly, since I graduated, and what have I gotten? Nothing.
And I'm not one of those people that believe I deserve a good job. Right now, I just want a job, part time, full time, day shift, night shift, graveyard shift, doesn't matter. I applied to businesses and fast food, the government and small business needing someone to enter data.
I type fast, I type accurate, I know my way around Microsoft Word, Excel, and Powerpoint. I've a degree in English Writing, and when I actually take the time, my grammar is near perfect. My Resume is good, I'm an honest and open person. Hell, I never did anything wrong at any of the jobs I've worked at before.
I want to be a writer, personally, or teach writing at a college, but I need more education for that. But I want to have a job, so I'm not as bogged down with student loans.
"The economy is shit right now," that's the only answer I ever get when people try to comfort me, but it's not just that. These are places HIRING, and I am an available worker! They post jobs on monster.com and careerbuilder, saying they have openings, and saying they have jobs, I send out an application, as I'm suppose to, and do I ever hear anything? No, nothing, most of them not even a rejection notice.
I guess I'm just complaining, something I don't do openly often. Which is why I created this, and why I rarely ever use it. I got some frustration in me, mostly at this feeling of uselessness. If it wasn't for Jess, I think I'd be nothing but an empty husk.
And the thing is, if I had money, I'd be spending it! I wouldn't be sitting on it waiting for the economy to fix itself. I'd be out there spending my money. I'd take Jess out to restaurants, I'd buy video games, candy, random junk, and useless knickknacks! Because that's what this economy needs, is people to spend fucking money, but I'm useless right now because I have none.
I feel like I've shunned my friends because I can't even afford the gas to get out to Stroudsburg or Philly. I feel so useless and bored and trapped. I wanna go to stroudsburg to see my friends there, I wanna go to Philly to see Randy and Adam and all those crazy folks there. I want to take Jess to a nice restaurant and not have to worry about gas next week.
And I would be helping this shit fuck poor economy by spending money and getting it back circulating. I'd buy goods, I'd buy junk. I'd buy movies, games, books, food, or whatever the fuck I want to, but I can't because the only thing I can afford is gas.
And I'm grateful I at least have that, or else I'd be trapped in my house and utterly useless.
And I'm so bogged down that I can't even write, I've made a few silly comics, and I drew a descent picture of Jess, but I can't write.
/rant
And I'm not one of those people that believe I deserve a good job. Right now, I just want a job, part time, full time, day shift, night shift, graveyard shift, doesn't matter. I applied to businesses and fast food, the government and small business needing someone to enter data.
I type fast, I type accurate, I know my way around Microsoft Word, Excel, and Powerpoint. I've a degree in English Writing, and when I actually take the time, my grammar is near perfect. My Resume is good, I'm an honest and open person. Hell, I never did anything wrong at any of the jobs I've worked at before.
I want to be a writer, personally, or teach writing at a college, but I need more education for that. But I want to have a job, so I'm not as bogged down with student loans.
"The economy is shit right now," that's the only answer I ever get when people try to comfort me, but it's not just that. These are places HIRING, and I am an available worker! They post jobs on monster.com and careerbuilder, saying they have openings, and saying they have jobs, I send out an application, as I'm suppose to, and do I ever hear anything? No, nothing, most of them not even a rejection notice.
I guess I'm just complaining, something I don't do openly often. Which is why I created this, and why I rarely ever use it. I got some frustration in me, mostly at this feeling of uselessness. If it wasn't for Jess, I think I'd be nothing but an empty husk.
And the thing is, if I had money, I'd be spending it! I wouldn't be sitting on it waiting for the economy to fix itself. I'd be out there spending my money. I'd take Jess out to restaurants, I'd buy video games, candy, random junk, and useless knickknacks! Because that's what this economy needs, is people to spend fucking money, but I'm useless right now because I have none.
I feel like I've shunned my friends because I can't even afford the gas to get out to Stroudsburg or Philly. I feel so useless and bored and trapped. I wanna go to stroudsburg to see my friends there, I wanna go to Philly to see Randy and Adam and all those crazy folks there. I want to take Jess to a nice restaurant and not have to worry about gas next week.
And I would be helping this shit fuck poor economy by spending money and getting it back circulating. I'd buy goods, I'd buy junk. I'd buy movies, games, books, food, or whatever the fuck I want to, but I can't because the only thing I can afford is gas.
And I'm grateful I at least have that, or else I'd be trapped in my house and utterly useless.
And I'm so bogged down that I can't even write, I've made a few silly comics, and I drew a descent picture of Jess, but I can't write.
/rant