::blinks:: electrolites smell like semen.. according to kurt cobain atleast..
mmmmmmmmmm i love love.. it tastes delicious..
i've learned that even if loves don't last.. they still.. are special and mean something to me. i really wish tim wouldn't just forget about me so easily. am i really that forgettable? that's one of my worst fears.. that i just won't matter at all to someone who matters to me..
oi vey. i have to stop saying that silly jewish phrase.. it's all nick's fault.
i'm really enjoying the relationship i have with nick right now. i've never felt so comfortable with someone. sometimes i feel intimidated by certain guys. i don't feel any of that with nick. i'm not nervous when i'm with him of making an ass of myself or anything because i know he could care less how stupid i am. nick cares for me alot. i can feel it.. deep down in my stomach i can feel his love and really it's made me so much happier. we rarely fight and when we do it's not really a fight persay.. it's more that i'm upset with him and explain to him why and he understands and we apologize, him for whatever silly thing he did and i for overreacting and being a bitch. he's so adorable.. i think i found in nick what was always missing with tim. nick SMILES when he sees me.. and i smile when i see him. it makes me happy to see his face and his smile. i really can't explain how amazing it is to feel like he genuinely loves me. any man can say 'i love you.' but i can feel it with nick. he doesn't have to even say it. i just know.
this weekend we might prove our love to eachother in a new way and i'm really excited. but you know what? if we don't, i'm fine with that too. we're in no rush. i'm really lucky because my boyfriend respects me and never forces me into anything. i think a lot of girls don't have that.
ok so what else about life? glad you asked. i did EXCELLENT on my second quarter report card. honors english 92 [went up 7 points!], honors math 93 [went up 8 points!], religion 89 [this kept me from first honors so i was a little pissed cause i could do better if i really cared], honors history 93, honors spanish 96, honors chem [sophmores] 94, honors band 97. i was really proud of myself. i think things have just been so much better and i must say i think nick has something to do with it. I'M SO COMFORTABLE WITH LIFE!!! =]
so what else can i ramble about? well some of us fine arts kids went on a field trip today to see the philadelphia orchestra rehearse. it was really amazing. i had fun hanging out with cacioppo, tara loeper, and krall.
yes so i guess i don't have much else to write about. i'm horrible at updating. i'm too busy being tired and talking on the phone with nick. it's safe to say my life revolves around him now.. good.. i like it that way..
ok i think i'm done now. much love bro-has.
<3
i've learned that even if loves don't last.. they still.. are special and mean something to me. i really wish tim wouldn't just forget about me so easily. am i really that forgettable? that's one of my worst fears.. that i just won't matter at all to someone who matters to me..
oi vey. i have to stop saying that silly jewish phrase.. it's all nick's fault.
i'm really enjoying the relationship i have with nick right now. i've never felt so comfortable with someone. sometimes i feel intimidated by certain guys. i don't feel any of that with nick. i'm not nervous when i'm with him of making an ass of myself or anything because i know he could care less how stupid i am. nick cares for me alot. i can feel it.. deep down in my stomach i can feel his love and really it's made me so much happier. we rarely fight and when we do it's not really a fight persay.. it's more that i'm upset with him and explain to him why and he understands and we apologize, him for whatever silly thing he did and i for overreacting and being a bitch. he's so adorable.. i think i found in nick what was always missing with tim. nick SMILES when he sees me.. and i smile when i see him. it makes me happy to see his face and his smile. i really can't explain how amazing it is to feel like he genuinely loves me. any man can say 'i love you.' but i can feel it with nick. he doesn't have to even say it. i just know.
this weekend we might prove our love to eachother in a new way and i'm really excited. but you know what? if we don't, i'm fine with that too. we're in no rush. i'm really lucky because my boyfriend respects me and never forces me into anything. i think a lot of girls don't have that.
ok so what else about life? glad you asked. i did EXCELLENT on my second quarter report card. honors english 92 [went up 7 points!], honors math 93 [went up 8 points!], religion 89 [this kept me from first honors so i was a little pissed cause i could do better if i really cared], honors history 93, honors spanish 96, honors chem [sophmores] 94, honors band 97. i was really proud of myself. i think things have just been so much better and i must say i think nick has something to do with it. I'M SO COMFORTABLE WITH LIFE!!! =]
so what else can i ramble about? well some of us fine arts kids went on a field trip today to see the philadelphia orchestra rehearse. it was really amazing. i had fun hanging out with cacioppo, tara loeper, and krall.
yes so i guess i don't have much else to write about. i'm horrible at updating. i'm too busy being tired and talking on the phone with nick. it's safe to say my life revolves around him now.. good.. i like it that way..
ok i think i'm done now. much love bro-has.
<3