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[While still on a loss and without a clue on how to filter, Django is flipping through the journal. He softly dictates, mostly to himself, hoping that it won't get recorded. Of course, it does;]
There was no sign of disappearance of the other me. Is this a loss...? No, it can't be. All these memories... They can't be fake. It resonates deeply inside, so why...? The other me couldn't have been on a loss for nearly three years. Even if this is a loss, I don't want it to end. I don't want the love I feel to end.
...I don't like this other me. He's confused. He says he's the Solar Boy, but Sabata is the Solar Boy... Or is he... am I from an alternate timeline? He speaks of that a lot with an obsession. [a pause] He tore up a picture. He is killing the Solar Boy who is attached to that legendary Eternal that even the Queen was afraid of. But he deemed it important enough to put it back together. He is lost. He doesn't know what he wants. The Solar Boy is supposed to help others, so why does he constantly refuse to help out? He is not the Solar Boy after all.
I don't want to return to being him. I don't like him. I hate him.
[there's hints in his voice that he's starting to cry]
Carmilla... Why won't you show up? I can't stand this anymore. I want to see you again, even for a fleeting moment.
There was no sign of disappearance of the other me. Is this a loss...? No, it can't be. All these memories... They can't be fake. It resonates deeply inside, so why...? The other me couldn't have been on a loss for nearly three years. Even if this is a loss, I don't want it to end. I don't want the love I feel to end.
...I don't like this other me. He's confused. He says he's the Solar Boy, but Sabata is the Solar Boy... Or is he... am I from an alternate timeline? He speaks of that a lot with an obsession. [a pause] He tore up a picture. He is killing the Solar Boy who is attached to that legendary Eternal that even the Queen was afraid of. But he deemed it important enough to put it back together. He is lost. He doesn't know what he wants. The Solar Boy is supposed to help others, so why does he constantly refuse to help out? He is not the Solar Boy after all.
I don't want to return to being him. I don't like him. I hate him.
[there's hints in his voice that he's starting to cry]
Carmilla... Why won't you show up? I can't stand this anymore. I want to see you again, even for a fleeting moment.