Jul 06, 2005 18:17
(DAY NINE: What makes God smile?)
QUESTION TO CONSIDER:
Since God knows what is best, in what areas of my life do I need to trust him more?
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Truly, I need to work on trusting God with my outward faith. That which people ask about. What I wear on my sleeve. I have been very comfortable with devotion at church, prayer, worship at church and with Aimee, but have not been very outward with my faith around my friends. It is not as though I feel the need to quote scripture around them to justify my actions or choices, but rather that I shouldn't be afraid or ashamed, when I'm around them, of my faith or its importance in my life. It's not as though I have anything to hide and it's not nearly as if I've surrounded myself with people that will cast me to the lions simply for growing stronger in my faith and belief in Jesus Christ. God creates challenges in our lives for us to learn from and grow through. He would never put me in a situation that would bring harm to my body or spirit simply because he wanted me to "prove" how strong my faith in Him is.
"Love the Lord your God with all your hear and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment." (Matthew 22:37-38) Trusting God completely means having faith that he knows what is best for your life. It is very hard for me to be so trustworthy right now, which is a great fall from grace. Rather, I need to give everything up to Him and trust that He will guide my life down the path to righteousness. Writing in this journal has been a way for me to start opening up more publically about my faith. Although I wouldn't ever ask for any of my friends to go searching for my entries, I certainly have no problem at all that they read them. Perhaps their curiousity is God working through them to see how I'm growing in my faith in case they need support if they choose to follow a similar path or even just to fulfill some of their own curiousity about the importance of faith in my life. Regardless, I will continue to be mindful of God, put my faith first, and trust in Him to watch over me. I will stop worrying about everyone else's perceptions and be more faithful in their support. I will to work to be a better person in the eyes of my coworkers, friends, my family, my Aimee, and my Lord.