heartened and disheartened -- week four
it seems like this is my consistent reaction, both heartened and disheartened all at once. to echo angel's post, i am officially 15 pounds lighter than i was when i started the diet. which is really really good!
at the same time, i don't feel any different, and i don't look any lighter to myself, and i'm disappointed in my lack of sticking to one of my goals -- exercising more often. okay, yeah, HEATWAVE, but still. there's a part of me that looks at that, sniffs, and says "you could still have found a way, lazybones."
she's really loud, lately.
so, go me! -15 pounds already! but at the same time -- get your ass back in gear, me! i can do better than that, if i just keep going.
the shifts in training have made it more difficult, i know that much. it's hard to get out and walk on my lunch when i've only got half an hour at a variable time and i hate using the gym when there's a lot of other people in there and i feel conspicuous, walking the halls for half an hour instead. people notice. i already feel like a freak, carrying my little cooler everywhere i go.
anyway...
time to go get ready for work. last day of mentor training. tomorrow i go live by myself with trainer-backup for a week and a half.
at the same time, i don't feel any different, and i don't look any lighter to myself, and i'm disappointed in my lack of sticking to one of my goals -- exercising more often. okay, yeah, HEATWAVE, but still. there's a part of me that looks at that, sniffs, and says "you could still have found a way, lazybones."
she's really loud, lately.
so, go me! -15 pounds already! but at the same time -- get your ass back in gear, me! i can do better than that, if i just keep going.
the shifts in training have made it more difficult, i know that much. it's hard to get out and walk on my lunch when i've only got half an hour at a variable time and i hate using the gym when there's a lot of other people in there and i feel conspicuous, walking the halls for half an hour instead. people notice. i already feel like a freak, carrying my little cooler everywhere i go.
anyway...
time to go get ready for work. last day of mentor training. tomorrow i go live by myself with trainer-backup for a week and a half.