blah blah
meh, so i went to the doctors office yesterday. my mom made me since ive been sick for two months and i was getting a bloody nose and had a fever and a really sore throat. well they looked me over and found out i have tonsilitis. yee fucking haw. but whatever, now im on antibiotics and feel so much better. atleast now im not sleeping all day and not through the night since i cant breathe from this lovely cold. oh well. atleast im getting better finally and im not being told its just a cold.
so im hostage in my own house today. well, not really i suppose, but i feel like that. my car is in saco (saw-co) with my mom since hers is getting work done. it always makes me feel trapped to think that i cant just get in the car and drive. especially with weather as nice as it has been lately. i love to drive around with no where to go and nothing to do, with the windows down and the radio blasting. reminds me of spring and summer days gone by. oh well, ill have it back tonight in time to see the great and fantastic holly marie nunan. you all should really hang out with her...shes just grand.
had a moment last night that made me appreciate life and made me stop to enjoy it. just as i was about to get into bed last night, i looked out my window and saw such a beautiful night sky. the moon is soon to be full, and it so brilliantly bright last night. the sky was a deep satiny blue with just a few stars sprinkled about. clouds were skimming by, shifting shape as if they were oil in water. the trees made these perfect black silouettes against the lavender colored snow and bright moon. it was perfect. i remembered driving home late one night with a friend and seeing the sky similar to that. but it was summer. last night made me long for a night like that again. the sky last night reminded me of why i love coming home. i cant see the sky in the city and wears on my country soul. when i see a night sky like that--so bright its like daytime--it makes me stop and just take everything around me in. when you see something so untouched and pristine, you remember that the little things arent so important. you remember to appreciate whats really special. i was happy to be alive last night...just because something so lovely. i hope gets to have that in their lives.