HATE.
I am beyond help.
I am a hopeless, lost cause.
I've been reading Awakening the Buddha Within and doing nothing but yeahbutting. I can't even see the logic in loving human beings anymore. I despise them. Human beings infuriate me.
My disappointment in the human race has become anger. It doesn't make me sad anymore, the way people judge each other, treat each other, accuse each other, manipulate each other, take each other for granted - it genuinely pisses me off.
In no way do I think myself superior...I am just as guilty of asshole tendencies. I just no longer believe in people. I do not think people are inherently good. I think people are inherently evil, and that we are all just evolving into inevitable demise.
It pops my forehead vein to look around and see people's inability to compromise....their seemingly ignorant, incapable of critical thinking closed minds, clouded in judgment and self righteousness. No one can have a logical debate without taking things personally....no one can look beyond their own selfish situations to see any kind of a bigger picture. Everyone thinks themselves better than everyone else. Everyone is out to get for themselves, even if being right is the big prize.
I hate people. I hate them. I am destined to be a hermit forever, because people are fucking assholes.
Does this make me an asshole? Self righteous? Judgmental? Probably. Mostly, I've just gone from an idealist, to a disappointed idealist, to an angry jaded person. Whats next?
I am a hopeless, lost cause.
I've been reading Awakening the Buddha Within and doing nothing but yeahbutting. I can't even see the logic in loving human beings anymore. I despise them. Human beings infuriate me.
My disappointment in the human race has become anger. It doesn't make me sad anymore, the way people judge each other, treat each other, accuse each other, manipulate each other, take each other for granted - it genuinely pisses me off.
In no way do I think myself superior...I am just as guilty of asshole tendencies. I just no longer believe in people. I do not think people are inherently good. I think people are inherently evil, and that we are all just evolving into inevitable demise.
It pops my forehead vein to look around and see people's inability to compromise....their seemingly ignorant, incapable of critical thinking closed minds, clouded in judgment and self righteousness. No one can have a logical debate without taking things personally....no one can look beyond their own selfish situations to see any kind of a bigger picture. Everyone thinks themselves better than everyone else. Everyone is out to get for themselves, even if being right is the big prize.
I hate people. I hate them. I am destined to be a hermit forever, because people are fucking assholes.
Does this make me an asshole? Self righteous? Judgmental? Probably. Mostly, I've just gone from an idealist, to a disappointed idealist, to an angry jaded person. Whats next?