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i don't know what to think anymore. he really knocked me around last night. i was so drunk.. so drunk.. he promised he'd always take care of me but this time he didn't. he let me wander off, didn't do anything when i jumped off the terrace and sprained my ankle. he just watched. then when it was time to go home he just yanked me up and told me that he didn't feel like taking care of me, that i was embarrassing him.
i tried to apologize. at that point i wasn't sure what we had been fighting about in the first place. it was the whole friend thing. i had told him once that i need no one but him but last night i missed my friends, all the friends i had dropped for him. that's why he was mad. that's why i landed in the dirt a thousand times last night every time he pushed me, everytime i tried to hold on to him. he told me not to touch him, that i was disgusting, that this was the worst relationship he's ever been in.
i don't understand.. i did so much. i tried so hard to make him happy. why does it always end like this?
i tried to apologize. at that point i wasn't sure what we had been fighting about in the first place. it was the whole friend thing. i had told him once that i need no one but him but last night i missed my friends, all the friends i had dropped for him. that's why he was mad. that's why i landed in the dirt a thousand times last night every time he pushed me, everytime i tried to hold on to him. he told me not to touch him, that i was disgusting, that this was the worst relationship he's ever been in.
i don't understand.. i did so much. i tried so hard to make him happy. why does it always end like this?