I have a dilemma.
And I would honestly appreciate any input you have on it, even if the end result is just you telling me to suck it up and do it (you’ll see what I mean when we’re done here).
So there are these new job openings at the Symphony. They’re pretty much an enhanced version of what I do now, except I would be dealing with specific people each year, the same people each year, really avid subscribers whose subscription and seating and extra-concerts needs I would specifically be in charge of. Pretty much, I would be a symphony concierge to a specific group of people. The job pays better, and it’s full time.
I wasn’t even going to consider applying for the job since I’ve only had my current position with the symphony since, what, the beginning of May?, and I don’t have too much sales experience otherwise. But I was talking to a woman who works with me, Carinne, who’s worked with the symphony for more than ten years, and she wanted me to help her with her resume since she’s not hot at word processing, and I said yes (okay, I actually LIKE doing resumes. I love bullet points). She asked me if I was going to put my resume in, and I honestly laughed and said no, that I didn’t have enough experience. Carinne said told me I should do it. She said I was smart, I was better with computers than anyone else applying, and I had a good chance of getting one of the positions.
What you have to understand is that Carinne isn’t the type to “make you feel better.” She’s a very nice woman and a pretty good friend, but she’s not the kind of person who will give you any false impressions. She’ll tell you like it is, even if that’s that you suck. And like I said, she’s had this current job for pretty much ever.
But now I’m working on my resume, and I’m kind of sick to my stomach. The thing is, I’m not sure I want a full-time job. Pretty soon, at least within the next few months, the job I have now will allow me to start working daylight hours in addition to my evening hours, so I’ll have the option to work more hours on a schedule that I like better (the job I currently have, I pretty much tell them when the hell I feel like working, as long as I work more than three shifts a week, so if I only feel like working Saturday morning and Tuesday and Wednesday evening, I’ll get dicked out of a hell of a lot of money, but I can do that. If, when I get the option to work daylight, I could work all day on Thursday, which is three shifts, morning, afternoon, and evening, and have six days off, not that I would do that). I’m not sure I want to work nine-to-five. I’m not sure I want to base my life around someone else’s schedule. And I know that’s kind of childish, but I’m not that kind of person. It’s not even that I don’t want to work 40 hours a week. It’s just that I would rather work from noon until nine than nine until five. I would rather work 12 hours for four days than 8 hours for five. I need space. I love, adore, worship the flexibility I have now (even though I’ve been working five days a week, but it’s in the afternoons and Saturday morning, so it feels like a lot less).
Enter mitigating factor: the house. Chris and I were online last night, and we’re seriously considering buying (or rent-to-owning) an actual house at the end of this year, seriously considering meaning we are going to do it, we just have to find the right house at the right price, and last night, we found twelve houses in a respectable price range, some of which we could have paid off in ten years or so. Some need some work. Some are just perfect. The rents/morgages are a lot less than what we’re paying now - hundreds less. Hundreds. But we need a down payment, and I have student loans to pay soon. And I don’t know what to do.
Do I work more hours at the job I currently having making less money but making it on my own time and being generally happier but maybe not being able to afford the nicest house or do I put my application in for this new job making more money but probably being less happy but maybe with a better house, a job which, in the end, I have a change of not getting anyway?
Augh.
Sorry for all that rant.
Any input is appreciated.
So there are these new job openings at the Symphony. They’re pretty much an enhanced version of what I do now, except I would be dealing with specific people each year, the same people each year, really avid subscribers whose subscription and seating and extra-concerts needs I would specifically be in charge of. Pretty much, I would be a symphony concierge to a specific group of people. The job pays better, and it’s full time.
I wasn’t even going to consider applying for the job since I’ve only had my current position with the symphony since, what, the beginning of May?, and I don’t have too much sales experience otherwise. But I was talking to a woman who works with me, Carinne, who’s worked with the symphony for more than ten years, and she wanted me to help her with her resume since she’s not hot at word processing, and I said yes (okay, I actually LIKE doing resumes. I love bullet points). She asked me if I was going to put my resume in, and I honestly laughed and said no, that I didn’t have enough experience. Carinne said told me I should do it. She said I was smart, I was better with computers than anyone else applying, and I had a good chance of getting one of the positions.
What you have to understand is that Carinne isn’t the type to “make you feel better.” She’s a very nice woman and a pretty good friend, but she’s not the kind of person who will give you any false impressions. She’ll tell you like it is, even if that’s that you suck. And like I said, she’s had this current job for pretty much ever.
But now I’m working on my resume, and I’m kind of sick to my stomach. The thing is, I’m not sure I want a full-time job. Pretty soon, at least within the next few months, the job I have now will allow me to start working daylight hours in addition to my evening hours, so I’ll have the option to work more hours on a schedule that I like better (the job I currently have, I pretty much tell them when the hell I feel like working, as long as I work more than three shifts a week, so if I only feel like working Saturday morning and Tuesday and Wednesday evening, I’ll get dicked out of a hell of a lot of money, but I can do that. If, when I get the option to work daylight, I could work all day on Thursday, which is three shifts, morning, afternoon, and evening, and have six days off, not that I would do that). I’m not sure I want to work nine-to-five. I’m not sure I want to base my life around someone else’s schedule. And I know that’s kind of childish, but I’m not that kind of person. It’s not even that I don’t want to work 40 hours a week. It’s just that I would rather work from noon until nine than nine until five. I would rather work 12 hours for four days than 8 hours for five. I need space. I love, adore, worship the flexibility I have now (even though I’ve been working five days a week, but it’s in the afternoons and Saturday morning, so it feels like a lot less).
Enter mitigating factor: the house. Chris and I were online last night, and we’re seriously considering buying (or rent-to-owning) an actual house at the end of this year, seriously considering meaning we are going to do it, we just have to find the right house at the right price, and last night, we found twelve houses in a respectable price range, some of which we could have paid off in ten years or so. Some need some work. Some are just perfect. The rents/morgages are a lot less than what we’re paying now - hundreds less. Hundreds. But we need a down payment, and I have student loans to pay soon. And I don’t know what to do.
Do I work more hours at the job I currently having making less money but making it on my own time and being generally happier but maybe not being able to afford the nicest house or do I put my application in for this new job making more money but probably being less happy but maybe with a better house, a job which, in the end, I have a change of not getting anyway?
Augh.
Sorry for all that rant.
Any input is appreciated.